Minizerk One-shots

Stay strong

TRIGGER WARNING
PLEASE DON'T READ IT IF YOU GET EASILY TRIGGERED BY MENTION OF SUICIDE, SELF-HARM AND CHARACTER DEATH.

After the sixth attempt on trying to write this I'm finally done.

I hope you enjoy it @sparklingzerkaa because this was the most difficult one that I've written so far.

Almost the whole request is above.

And I refuse to kill them, from now on. I feel like a suck at writing these kid of  things.

Ps: I really wanted to slap Simon whilst writing this.

Enjoy, I guess🙃 (This one might be real bad)
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Writing down the last word of the letter, adding a dot to the end of the sentence, Josh sighed, signing his name on the bottom of the paper with the most beautiful signature that he could manage.

He had to read it again before giving it, well placing it in front of Simon's room.

He looked up from the paper, chuckling. He almost crossed a  sentence out in  brackets, but changed his mind before his pen could touch the paper.

"I can't give this to him. No." He whispered turning away from his desk.

He unlocked his phone out of habit, but what he saw on his screen made him turn back to the letter.

He forgot to close his gallery where he was previously swiping through pictures of him and Simon.

"Ah, fuck it." He mumbled picking up the letter again.

He silently exited his room, since it was the middle of the night, and tip-toed to the blonde's room.

He queitly placed the letter in front of his door in an envelope.

"Now or never." He thought, going back into his room to fall into dreamless sleep.

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Simon wandered out of his room twenty minutes after Josh had left the 'scene', to get a glass of water from the kitchen.

Going back, he noticed that an envelope was laying in front of the door.

Picking it up with a raised eyebrow, he went back in, locking the door behind him and sat down on his bed.

He opened it carefully, already recognising the handwriting before he started reading it.

Dear Simon,
I have to tell you something, that's been on my mind for a long-long time.

I'm gay. Yes, I've said it. (Well wrote it down, but all the same).

Simon looked up from the paper and rubbed his eyes forcefully.

"What?" He whispered, making his eyes focus again.

This may not be a surprise for you, but for me it was when I finally figured it out. And the main reason why I'm telling you this this way is because you are the reason why I managed to find out, and I think I won't ever be able to tell you face to face.

So let me tell you a lot of things. Lets start with the first time when I met you. The first time I saw you, you were just a stranger, following JJ around like a lost puppy. A saw you as a  potential friend, someone to work with. But after we'd moved in together and started hanging out more, I could feel that our bond was groing bigger each day pretty quickly. And from the moment we started recording random games together, I've had this weird feeling in my chest whenever I was around you. I didn't know what it was. I thought that I just simply cared about you more than my other friends, but it was so far away from that.