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Here's your angst boo😂 JasmineElectra

Pretty self-explanatory sad songfic.
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"My whole life waiting for the right time
To tell you how I feel."

Simon was standing in the middle of the streets his head burried in his hands, but just for a split second. He had to see him one last time. As he left. It was too late now. He was gone and he was not coming back again. At least that's what he'd told him.

They were dating for two years. Two fucking years and he just couldn't tell him how he  really felt. Of course they sent each other little love hearts in text or signed the notes  with 'love' in the end that they'd often left for one another in the house. Their own house where they moved in together six months ago.

"Know I try to tell you that I need you.
Here I am without you.
I feel so lost but what can I do?"

It was not entirely his fault though. Josh could've said those three small words a long time ago and maybe, just maybe this wouldn't have happened.

"'Cause I know this love seems real
But I don't know how to feel."

Yes it was real. It'd been real for more than two years. But then again, he still couldn't belive it that it was over.

Josh had had enough of this. This whole game of love and hate that they played. The amount of times they'd said that it was over is unreal.

They fought over almost everything in the past few months for no reason. Pity things like not taking the trash out, forgetting to go grocery shopping or just an accidental glance at another male that wasn't their significant other.

Yes, jealousy was a key part of their relationship. They just couldn't help it. It's not that they didn't trust each other. No. It was just that they didn't know what they exactly were.

A couple? Friends with benefits? Lovers? They had no clue. And the worst thing in this situation was that none of them tried to actually find out.

Yeah, they were dating, they sort of  figured that out, however they never exactly said this out loud.

One day they just kind of happened.

After Josh broke up with Freya, some things got out of hand in the Sidemen house. He'd been depressed for a long time and the fact that no one knew that didn't help it in any way. Since the bearded man was the one who held this whole group together, it was nothing without him.

Then Simon came into the picture like an adorable, fragile kitten that you see on the street and don't have a heart to leave it there so you take it home, knowing that you shouldn't have.

They started talking every day again, like they always did in the old Sidemen house. And on one of these lonely nights of their's their lips connected.

Josh had changed then and there. For the better. Back to his normal self. He took him out on dates, held his hand, stayed with him for the night. And of course slept with him in all of the phrase's meanings.

But now Simon stood there not believing what just happened.

"We say goodbye in the pouring rain
And I break down as you walk away."

He stood there in the pouring rain, not caring about the way it soaked his clothes and made him shiver. His tears rolled down on his face like a waterfall. He was crying silently, no sobs escaped his mouth as he watched him leave.