Kaleidoscope

Chapter Twenty-Six

Dear Journal,

What was I thinking? I'm never going to get Mom on my side. I'm not sure how much influence Dad has anymore with her, but at least he's with me on this. I need this so badly. Can you just imagine me driving a van? I could see all my friends again—ones who have conveniently left me in the dust just because I'm paralyzed. Come to think of it, I don't think I'll even bother with them. They were all concerned when the accident happened but they're all on to other things now. I guess I'll just stick with the other special kids like me—at least they understand.

I think I heard Danny come in the front door. I wonder why he didn't come see Dad. I think things are really strained between them. Poor kid. First, he can't deal with me, and now he's on the outs with Dad. I don't think he can forgive him for the affair. He's been so quiet since he's been home. I'd like to talk to him but he seems so distant. I guess I wasn't very fair to him when we were in high school. I just wanted him to do the best he could. Dr. Connelly was right. I tried to be just like Jen and I wanted Danny to be just like me. Is that what I thought our parents wanted? I'm so confused sometimes. But, that's why I have this journal, I guess. To put all my confusion on paper. Maybe I'll just burn it when all of this is over. Will it ever be over?

Theresa