Catching A Snowflake (Damon Fanfiction)

Chapter 47: Journal entry #6

Evangeline P.O.V.

I can't hide it anymore. I dont care if you read this Damon, and I know you're going to be mad when you find out there are still some feelings I've kept hidden. Please understand, that I can't say what I need to in front of you. But maybe writing down it all, we'll give you a different perspective...

Its been three months...

Jenna died three months ago.

Elena became a vampire three months ago.

Elijah disappeared three months ago.

Klaus left three months ago.

Summer has never felt more dead. These months were hard. We found out that apparently before Klaus snapped Elena's neck. He had given her his blood when he went to visit them at the Gilbert's summer house. Elena was the only one that knew about it and yet she put herself in danger just for me.

Im proud, but mad at what she did. She was not ready for this. The first few weeks of becoming a vampire was hard on her. She killed three people by accident and couldn't get over it. It was hard...

With the stress of whatever it is I am, I was constantly tired of holding everything in. This thing inside me is rattling around and I fear I might lose it someday.

With the death of Jenna still looming over us, there had been accidents. Accidents involving me since I can't control what I do sometimes.

But, just recently, I've managed to hold it in whenever my emotions spiked. Normally my 'powers' would trigger whenever I was angry or sad. But thankfully now I knew when to use it and not.

It feels weird talking about my 'powers'. I dont even want to call it that. Im just a regular human who happen to have doppelganger blood. Either way, I was mortal. I wasnt a witch, nor was I a vampire.

Im just me.

But with energy type powers.

Im rolling my eyes right now just thinking about it.

Now that its over, a new school year begins for me.

Damon has been trying to make sure I dont do anything stupid which I'm grateful for since I don't even know what I'm going to do.

Whatever the matter, I never thought I would be happy being with him. Damon made me feel like a brand new person. Was that bad or good? It was awkward obviously after that night. The night where I slept with Damon.

I don't really remember much, it was all a giant blur. I just remember losing it again in the middle of the night and hiding out in the kitchen. Damon was there for me all the way. I know he will always be there for me.

So far things have been pretty quiet in Mystic Falls other then the fact that Damon is now more annoying, playful and lets not forget over-freaking-protective. Its like his usual over protectiveness shot up to a brand new level.

I can't write anymore with Damon sneaking behind me. I'm actually hiding out in the kitchen pretending to make a sandwich while Damon talks with Stefan over some stupid spat. Its not really serious but it gets pretty annoying sometimes when you walk in and see a couple things broken.

I don't quite know how the others are taking it about me being in a relationship with Damon. Either way, they never said anything against it. Maybe they realised that I made Damon a better person. And in return, he ensures I don't think of anything stupid.

I'm heading out tomorrow to train with Damon on how to control my 'powers'. I don't want him to go with me since well... it'll hurt him too but he's very demanding. I was suppose to go with Alaric as him being human, he was less affected by it. My 'powers' only cause more damage to vampires.