I'm Not Sure of My Feelings for You 2 (Harry Styles and Camila Cabello)

Chapter 84 The Shirt

           (Towers Little Mix)

What about forever? What about always? Always and Forever? They were lies! Everything, every word was a lie! He was a lie! Every dream was about my future with him, I had something to look forward to...and now I don't. I will admit that it hurts but I have to forget about it. Everyone told me it would be easy but they just don't understand, they don't know what he meant to me.

"Cam?" Charlie shouts through the house. He walks into his room and finds me laying on his bed, with my head in my hands. "What's wrong babe?" He says and I feel the bed dip signalling that he is sitting.

I lift my head up and think for a second. "Have-Have you ever loved someone?" He looks at me. "Like really loved them, and then they disappeared from your life, and you couldn't do anything about it?" I ask him and he moves closer to me.

  "When I was engaged to Sophie I was desperately in love with her. When she found someone who had more "money than me" she left. It took me forever to get over the fact that she didn't actually love me, she just loved my money...which was actually my dad's money. She meant the world but she didn't actually love me, and it hurt like hell, and honestly it still does." I look him in the eyes and I see that they are glossy. "I have learned to accept it and maybe I wasn't a good boyfriend to her." He shrugs and turns his head from me. I caress his cheek and gently push his face to look back at me. "You know she never touched me or treated me like you do, I just realized that." He says and I laugh as a small tear falls down my cheek, his thumb catches it. "I'm glad I found you Cam." he smiles and I smile as well.

  "He never cared for me like you do...well at first he led me to believe that he did but proved me wrong." I sigh and run my hand through my hair. "I thought he loved me, but wrong about that too." I shake my head laughing at my stupidity, Charlie wipes away my tears that I didn't know I let fall. "Don't show sympathy for me, it was my fault...I-I'm the one that let him in." I roll my eyes and put my hair into a messy bun.

  "Yeah but you didn't know how he would act towards you." Charlie adds trying to make me feel better, but it doesn't help, he doesn't understand.

  "You're right I didn't, but he didn't act like that at first...he was loving and charming. he trapped me brainwashed me into believing that he actually gave a single fuck about me when in reality he really didn't and it broke me. I was just his experiment, his damn play thing!" My vice has risen and so has my temper. "You don't understand what he meant to me...what he still means to me!" I cover my mouth right as the words fall from it. Did I just say that? Holy fucking shit, I just said that! I look at Charlie and he has no hint of judgment in his eyes. "Oh my gosh, Charlie I didn't actually mean that I'm just I-I." I stop and he moves closer.

  "Shh...its alright. You loved him, its fine." he caresses my hair then kisses the top of my head. "Lets make a deal?" I look up at him and nod my head. "When we both need to release our problems we talk to one another and be truthful...no matter what it's about. Alright? Even if it is saying we still have feelings for our "exes" because we do and probably always will." Charlie says and puts out his pinky, as do I. We wrap our pinkies around one another's and laugh at how childish we are, but this promise means the world to me and I adore him for it.

  "Deal, babe." I giggle at him and kiss the side of his mouth. "So can we order more pizza?" I ask batting my lashes and pouting, he chuckles.

He gets off the bed and stands by the door with his arm stretched and his fingers moving signaling for me to hold his hand.

  "What's your obsession with pizza, anyways?' He chuckles while we walk down the stairs but makes and abrupt stop at the third step. "Before you answer hop and my back." I laugh and jump on his back, he continues to walk down the long staircase that wraps literally around the house.