BINABASA MO ANG

la carta de amor

Non-Fiction

For my love, Gabriel. Everything I've kept hidden; everything I wanted to say. How I caged the wild, how I tamed the love. How I built this wall. How I hid from you. My love that was never given, and will never be given, I hid it here in this saf...

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I feel so suffocated.

Like having trouble to breathe, but not dying.

Like wanting to sleep, but not sleeping.

I can't believe I will say this since September's my birth month but... September hasn't even arrived yet but I feel like I'm going to hate it to death.

I feel like wearing a mask.

I feel like I'm not myself.

I'm not this. I'm not me. Although I tried, yet failed because no one would like to accept that.

I told my Mom I'm failing at math. She was rather okay, I was expecting her to be disappointed. And tell me I'm such a disappointment. Maybe that's only me telling myself that.

Or maybe she won't tell me that because she's afraid of hurting me.

I feel like an outcast.

I hate feeling like that.

(8/31/2016)