la carta de amor

ocho

#097

Hi. Hindi ako mahilig magsulat ng mga ganito, pero I will try to give it a shot. Aaminin ko, hindi ako inglisero. But I heard she finds it hotter pag nageenglish ang isang lalaki. Lalo na sa boses. I've asked myself many times... Hot ba boses ko? But anyway... there's this girl na itago natin sa pangalan na "Cheyenne". She's pretty... and I doubt na she looks at herself the way I look at her. She's sweet. God damn, sweet. She's also cute. But she never knows that. Buong akala niya ay di ko siya napapansin. Akala niya I don't care. But Cheyenne, I'm sorry to break this to you but I care. A lot. More than you think.

I am missing Cheyenne. Bago pa magpasukan alam ko naman na, na hindi na siya dito sa PCC. I didn't believe her, at first. It can't be true. I know she likes me and it would take some guts to leave me.

I guess I was too confident.

She even confessed to me... before summer started. Ang haba. And honestly? My heart was touched. Although that was too gay for me to say. Nakakainis, nababakla na ata ako.

But I told her "thank you" and "sorry". And I know that must've hurt. I even told her na magaral ng mabuti sa new school niya.

I was too confident. Alam ko sa sarili ko na hindi siya aalis. Hindi niya ako kayang iwan. The words that I said are false. I like Cheyenne too. Ever since the moment she started chasing me... back then, in sixth grade.

I know, I've hurt her. Pero anong magagawa ko? We're still young at wala pa akong napapatunayan. There's years ahead of us.

So what's a man gotta do? Reject. I've rejected her plenty of times. And I know she got hurt plenty of times. She's too transparent. And that's a quality I love about her.

Masyado siyang martyr. Masyadong matapang. Wala siyang pakialam kung ano iisipin ng iba. That's her. And I love that about her.

I was too confident na she would be chasing me forever... pero lumipat siya. Tinotoo niya.

Akala ko kasi... hindi.

I want my suwail back.

I want those little notes you leave on my envelope.

I want to see you on that stairs trying to hide whenever I catch you staring. I find it adorably cute.

Chase me, again.

Or are you tired of chasing me, Cheyenne?

What would you do if I start chasing you?

But no. I won't... for now. Let's let destiny decide what's ahead of us. Gusto ko yung may mapapatunayan na ako.

And when it comes to a better time, and better place, I would chase you. The way you chased me.

I miss you. Wait for me.

I love you.

Or am I too young to say this?

From: Naruto.

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Write me this letter and I would love you forever.

By the way... I am sorry to say this but I am still in love with you.

I admit it, I am attracted to Janzel since the very start.

But no one can take away the attraction I have for you. It's different.

I miss you. I should've seen you today... I could've. But I didn't.

I love you.

-From me,

Andrea

7/4/2016