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It's so hard to be a woman when no one treats you like one.
Today, while watching a compilation video of Jimin's cuteness, I cried. Remembering how my classmate (boy) treated me. I feel like I'm not respected as a woman, and I feel like I don't act like one.
I'm not crying because I am not treated properly, I'm crying because no man would be there for me if I was hurt or anything like that. No man would wipe my crying tears. No man would care if I was hurt. And now I've understood it all.
I just want someone to love me because I can't love myself.
But no one would. I know no one would until I won't start to love myself first.
I slept and I just woke up, I was hoping to feel better by this time but I am jealous, again.
I'm jealous because Julia is so lucky to have you as her bestfriend. She's so lucky, I swear. I want to sit beside you on a bus too. All of the things I didn't get to do with you, the both of you happen to do so. I want to lay my head on your shoulder as we sit on the bus, maybe share some snacks or listen to some music.
I shouldn't be jealous, right? You're gay. She's a girl, di kayo talo, diba?
I should move on... right?
(1/20/2017)
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