la carta de amor

ochenta y uno

081

Do you know what? I saw you today. I didn't feel the need to write it in here and wanted to leave it just like that. I wanted to forget.

Pero tangina kilig aq HIHI

CHAR! PROMISE CROSS MY HEART HOPE TO DIE AYOKO NA SAYOOOOO

bat ba kasi nakita pa kita kakainis na bakla kakainis na aella! selos ako  ! CHAR ULIT PADLOCK TAPON SUSI KAIN PATING!!!!

de joke, but in all seriousness, im quite glad i saw you. and its what i just expected. di tayo magpapansinan.

and di ko rin inexpect na andun ka... alam ko kasi ayaw mo sa mga ganun eh kaya idk what brought you there but you're probably not the gabriel i used to know kaya ganon

but anyway enough of this kabaklaan HAHA ano my lesson for today is do not expect

im still hoping for the best alam mo yun? but i know i should expect the worst. pero grabe lang hirap huhu

like im still hoping for the best in many waays, di lang sayo. im hoping na everything turns out well sa pasukan, na okay adviser ko, na okay classmates ko. gusto ko madalian. ayoko madepress nanaman because some teacher or classmate brought me down. hay

im honestly scared for college kasi terror profs! i read a post sa fb about the "worst" prof he ever encountered :( nakakalungkot that some people have to be treated that way just because another person lived another 10 years before him! naiinis talaga ako when people are treated unfairly :(

especially when i cant do anything about it :( hay

but there'd be no success without failure nga diba so

bat ko ba sinasabi to dito tangina dapat gumawa na lang ako ng diary eh

siguro ito yung mga gusto ko sabihin sayo kaso nga gusto na kita tigilan? idk pota ayoko na talagaaaa

dat gumawa na lang ako ng diary pero myself's too boring to update it dailyyyy so far ito lang yung meron akong entries na entertaining lol

um anyway saw arianne today ang payat! although wala paring pwet lol but still!!!!!!! tangina im already trying my BEST-est like capslock talaga para alam mo kung gano kahiraaap!

ano pa pala i just realized this pero kahit na dati magkausap tayo errday, there's still this wall. wall na you cant cross, neither can i. we built it together and i guess thats the only thing that we can bond on? char ano daw?!

these entries break those walls. no— these entries would break my wall. not yours. i can never break yours. i know. i just know.

um idk kung bibigay ko to or you'll find out on your own? or idk! but yeah these entries once held my feelings im actually quite glad to see myself change on what i think about you and about others.

so yun lang lol idk na bahala na i dont care and i wont ever ever ever ever give these entries to you! at least thats my decision for now.
and tatawag ko sa entries na to "wrecking ball" bc it would break my wall once you find out

(6/15/2017)