Insecure

A tough girl whose soul aches.

Big Girls Cry - Sia

"What do I need to do to get you the eat that piece of bacon?" Harry asks crossing his muscular arms over his chest.

Then I had a thought.

"Take me to the gym?"

"Right now?" He asks.

"No of course not, maybe next time you go? I feel like they won't judge me there as much as I'm judged at school. I mean you go to a gym to get healthy and that's what I want." I explain.

"What makes you think you're not healthy now?" Harry asks before taking a bite of his omelette.

"I'm not unhealthy but everyone can work at something right?" I offer as I pick up the piece of bacon timidly.

"If you eat that you have a deal." He says, I take a bite and savor the familiar taste. "But you have to continue to eat well or I won't take you Sara, if you work out you have to keep your body fed." He explains and I nod. "Do you want to go after school?"

I pause for a minute thinking, it's Wednesday so Michael will be working until the evening. "As long as I'm home in time to make dinner that's fine but I need to go shopping for workout clothing."

"Just wear your PE clothes." Harry shrugs.

"I don't take PE." I mumble and Harry looks at me in surprise. "I'll have Emily take me after school and we can start tomorrow."

"No, I'll take you and we can start after." Harry insists firmly. "Why don't you drive? You're almost 19 Sara, you can't rely on everyone to drive you around all the time."

"Fuck you, you don't know anything about me." I spit and Harry's eyes widen. He leans back and crosses his arms with a smug look.

"Enlighten me then Miss Andrews." He sneers and I want to punch his perfect fucking face. I take a deep breath and my eyes drop to my lap. "Wanna know what I think?" He asks after a few minutes of silence. "I think you try to fool everyone into thinking you're just some timid little bunny, I think you've gone through life fighting internally. I think you allow people to control and affect your life since it's easier then fighting them." Harry pauses as he leans his elbows on the table and looks me in my eyes. "When I look into your eyes I see a tough girl who's soul aches."

Wow.

"Am I wrong?" He asks smirking.

"No." I mumble.

"So since I know who you really are Sara, drop the act. Be real with me and I'll be real with you." Harry offers looking into my eyes with his beautiful dark greens.

Why can't I look away?

"I think it's really fucking weird that you have four nipples." I deadpan as Harry's eyes widen before bursting out into laughter.

"My mum always said it made me special." He says smiling.

"It makes you weird."

"I'd rather be weird then be boring, at least you'll remember that weird guy with the two extra nipples." Harry smirks and I chuckle. "That's the first time I've seen you laugh you know? All I had to do was flash you some tit." He muses causing me to laugh even harder.

Harry tossed another piece of bacon on my plate and gets back to eating, by the time we were done Harry and I had successfully cleaned our plates.

"Shit." I say jumping as my phone goes off. "Hello?"

"Where the fuck are you? Michael looked like he was going to kill me when I knocked on your door today." Emily says with her voice full of worry.

"I'm so sorry Em, I forgot to text you and tell you I walked to school." I fib as Harry shakes his head.

"It's fine but be careful tonight hun, he looks super pissed." She warns.

"I'll be fine, I'll see you later." I say before hanging up.

"We should head to school, I'll drop you off and get back home to change before our session today." Harry says as he pulls out his wallet, I go to get mine but he stops me. "It's my treat Sara."

"What do you mean session?" I ask.

"Instead of study hall everyday you and I will be meeting in my office." He explains as he puts money on the table.

"Everyday?" I mumble to myself.

"Yup, get used to this face doll, you'll be seeing plenty of it." Harry says smirking as he slides out of the booth. Once we got into the car I could tell he wanted to ask me a question by the way he was chewing his lip.

"What is it Harry?"

"We will talk about it later." He says as he pulls out of the parking lot. Within a few minutes we were in front of the school.

"Thank you." I whisper and he nods.

"I'll see you later Sara." He says as I jump out of his car.

"Sara! Sara hold up!" A voice shouts after
Me as I walk into the school. "Hey, you didn't text me last night." Nathan says as he walks up next to me.

"Sorry, I was busy with my family." I lie.

No, you were busy letting your brother in law fuck you like the whore you are.

"Here, why don't you put your number in my phone huh?" He says as he stops me and hands me his phone. I shake my head seeing some half naked model as his background before programming my number in. "Thanks, I'll see you in English beautiful." He says with a wink before running off as I smile and shake my head.

"He's only talking to you because you're Sterling's T.A and English is his worst subject." Chloe sneers as she walks up to me and my smile immediately drops as I look down. "Be honest with yourself now Sara, all a man could ever want you for is your tits and your brains." She chides before walking off hurriedly.

The worst part of it all?
She's right.