one night // colby brock

fifty eight | car rides

// A.N. Thank you so much for 11k and enjoy the chapter!

Ronnie's POV

I was in a car for the first time in 3 months.

3 months is a really long time.

Although nothing had changed, everything felt different,

"I'm scared to ask" I say wondering with a terrifed shake at the back of my brain,

"He's not doing that great" Sam replied.

Knowing exactly what I was talking about,

"Tell me please" I beg.

I needed to see him.

I was going crazy.

"I can't describe in Ron, it's like he's lost. I don't know what it is it's just, he's not Colby" he said blankly as he kept his eyes on the road,

"He's lost without you. He cries almost every minute of the day and when he is silent I have to go check on him. He isn't in the best of shape, Ronnie".

I didn't realise I was crying until Sam asked me if I was okay,

"I'm okay it's just" I start but couldn't continue because I was simply lost for words,

"Hard to think of?" Sam asked,

"Yeah I just - I did this to him. Me leaving, oh god how could I be so selfish?" I say realising what I had done.

I had ruined a person.

Completely stripped them off their humanity without realising it.

I had broke down Colby.

One of the strongest people I know and he was broken.

Thinking that nothing had changed when everything had,

"What no. Ronnie, you are the love of his life and you are basically what gets him through the day. You are one of the best, if not the best thing that has ever happened to him" Sam started,

"You weren't selfish, you were selfless if anything. If you didn't have time to recover and time to heal then you would of pushed us all away, especially Colby. This was a good thing, mental torture maybe but everything will be great in about 10 minutes when we get back home, okay?" Sam ended as he rubbed my shoudler.

Sometimes I just needed Sam to pull me into the right direction,

"Yeah. Everything is going to be okay" i say reassuring myself.

I was going to see everyone I cared about.

I was going to see Colby.