Victoria
I tried to stay seated quietly but my anxiety got the best of me. My legs began shaking uncontrollably till I couldn't take it. I shot up, making everyone around look at me.
I cleared my throat, "I'm gonna have to excuse myself as well." I said before walking out the door
As soon as I stepped out, the tears that I had been fighting so hard to hold back began spilling all at once. I tried to keep my sobbing down, but it hurt too much. I thought I was ready for this, but I guess not, especially not so soon.
I'm not ready to face all the changes that I have to quietly accept into my life. Not to mention how sudden it all was. I don't want to deal with any business, let alone stay under the public's eye . I'm not ready to be looked at differently by everyone. I'm not ready to be anyone's wife. I'm not even ready to start any type of relationship. But none of that is my choice.
I crouched on the grass as my legs gave out. Everything I had kept inside for so long was finally let out. I cried out as the clawing in my chest became unbearable.
It felt humiliating, what am I crying about? It wasn't that I'm getting married to someone who doesn't hold any sort of affection for me. It was the fact that my own parents sat there like it was nothing and didn't try to stop any of this from happening to me.
"Hey." A voice called out
I was shocked to see Sehun standing in front of me. I looked down, covering my eyes from him as if he couldn't hear my sobbing.
"Don't sit on the grass its wet, you'll get your pants dirty. Come on get up." He said while looking the other way
I wiped my tears and stood up. He finally faced me but I turned around just as fast in order to hide my red eyes and wet cheeks. He sighed and patted my head awkwardly.
"If it makes you feel better, you're not alone." He said
"Yeah no duh." I dryly chuckled
"I mean since its partly my fault, you can let out everything to me" He said
A small smile broke out on my lips as I gave him a small nod, "Thanks."
"Alright lets go inside. You can wash your face and eat something too." He said
"I think I'm gonna stay out here for a bit." I said
"Alright then, come in whenever you're good."
I nodded my head. As soon as he walked in, I let out a shaky breath. It'll work out in the end, everything will be alright, I assured myself.
I cleared my throat and took in a deep breath before slowly let it out. I turned around and held the door knob for a while, contemplating if I should go in yet or not.
I finally twisted the knob and slowly stepped in. I peeked in the living room, surprised to find out that no one was there except for Sehun. I finally walked in holding a confused expression.
"Where is everyone?" I asked
"Dunno, probably left to do whatever it is they do. Anyways I asked the cook to serve some food." He said
I sat down timidly on the couch on the opposite side of Sehun. I got more comfortable as time went by. I leaned back and watched the tv as well.
"So, where do you wanna go for the honeymoon?" He asked
My heart skipped a beat when I heard that. Just what is he talking about.
"You're actually serious?" I asked feeling flustered
"Might as well make the most of it." He answered
"I guess so. I don't mind going anywhere." I answered
"We have to wait till the semester is done so we can travel though. We can think of our trip as a reward for our hard work." He said
I nodded and started drowning in my thoughts. What will my friends say when they find out that I've been keeping this major secret from them. I shook the thoughts out of my head.
"The food is served in the dining room."
Both Sehun and I got up at the same time and headed towards the dining room. I sat in the chair across from him. I picked up my utensils and started eating. I quickly ate my food considering the tension in this house after all that happened.
"Hey I really have to go home now. Is it okay if your chauffeur drives me home?" I asked
"I'll send you home, I don't want to disturb him at this time," said Sehun as he stood up, "let's go."
I followed him out to his car. He was surprisingly taking this early marriage thing pretty well.
"Make sure to tell your parents that you're at home." He said as he started his car
I looked at him as he was driving. He looked a bit different than usual. I wasn't sure what it was, but it was something about him that made him seem a bit cooler? I shook my head and looked straight ahead before any other weird thoughts could pop up again.
I awkwardly cleared my throat and looked out the window. I glanced back at him for a second just to see that he had glanced at me at the same time. My heart skipped a beat as I quickly turned away. I sank in the car seat feeling my cheeks heat up from embarrassment.
After texting my parents that I was home I looked up and saw the car pulling up at my house. I put my phone away and got out. I took out my keys as I made my way to the front door when suddenly,
"Hey wait!" I saw Sehun walking towards me
"What is it?" I asked
"Are you busy this weekend?" He suddenly asked
I froze in my spot as I stared at him. I glanced away and cleared my throat but stayed quiet. I scratched the back of my head and glanced at him for a second, curious of his facial expressions. When I saw that he was still looking at me I quickly looked away, not wanting to hold the eye contact.
"Are you just gonna ignore me?" He sighed
"No- Sorry I was just flustered. It wasn't something I was expecting." I mumbled the last part
"So? Yes or no?" He asked
"Uh, no I don't think I'm busy. I'll have to double check though." I answered while looking down
"Alright then, double check and let me know. I'll be waiting for your text." He said before making his way back to his car
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