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Regret

~Sans

The Genocide routes have been going on forever now. I know Fresh and Chara have something to do with this. Watching everyone die over...and over... and over... It's getting... bad. It's times like these when I don't like remembering resets. It's times like these when I start wondering if sparing Fresh was really worth it. It's times like these I wonder how long its gonna take for me to die... or how short the Genocide run will be THIS time. I have to keep fighting Chara though... I know it's Chara, not Frisk... No matter what I will keep fighting Chara. For my own sanity and the sanity of this world. I've been super depressed though.... that's not helping things. 

I've tried fighting Chara in different areas of the world, I've tried using everything. For some reason, nothing is working. I don't even have time to think about anything anymore, just surviving. For some reason, I was so desperate to kill Chara I tried to fake befriending Flowey so Chara would die. But even that didn't work. I've remembered so much after these resets, and yet somehow I can't get Chara to stop. I'm not even going to call Chara a person anymore...

This time we met back at the old place we used to fight each other: the judgment hall. When we met, I said the usual, and started the battle, knowing it was hopeless, but I had to try anyway. I used every possible attack on Chara. Chara, of course, dodged everything and started attacking me with the usual knife. I dodge and then replace the bones I've been using for the bones that I used with that other skeleton. Chara even dodged that and said "Idiot." to me before killing me. Again. 

After that I just gave up. I just ducked into the trees in Snowdin and never came out until Chara found me and killed me every Geno route. I was just so sick and tired of it. I just wanted it to end... then the lesser dog found me. I didn't want it here with me here because it might die, so I killed it. Then I heard a random sound and words popped above my head, "Your LV has increased." This was confusing. I'm not supposed to gain levels... only Chara can do that. Only Chara can increase her LV, and her stats. I checked my stats.

 I was level two alright. This felt... weird. To know you have more power than you usually do. Wait... maybe I can use this against Chara. But me having to kill monsters...? No... I wouldn't dare.  Too risky... but maybe if I do... I'll get to see my Papyrus again. He's not dead I know he's out there, somewhere.... in the meanwhile, I've substituted the Pap here as my brother. But if I kill Chara... I won't have too? Maybe I can see him again... but killing other monsters just for that would be stupid. But I'm not just doing it for Papyrus, I'm doing it for everyone. If these Geno routes keep coming I won't be able to take it anymore. I slowly get up and walk to the ruins. I know just the thing to kill first.