The free will ( eng)

20. All is fair in love?

But tell me, at the time of those sweet sighs, By what in what manner, Love conceded, That you should know your dubious desires? " And she to me " There is no greater sorrow, Than to be mindful of the happy time, In misery, and that thy teacher knows ( Inferno #5)

The spring arrives and I rent out my back room almost all the time. It's good money but takes time and energy to travel twice a day. I have no possibility to go out dancing and must go home with Calle. The days I can stay in my shop I'm thrilled. .

If I'm lucky and can dance on Wednesdays I meet David again. He's an instructor at the bar /restaurant Olof and I go to. The tension between us when we dance is touchable. My body remembers all to well. He flirts like a player as a usual and I wonder why he is teasing me?

- That's cheating; you know that, I whisper when he presses his palms in mine.

- Everybody does that, he says and laughs. His big brown eyes glitters with school boy charm.

- No, you are actually pretty unique about that, I say and shake my head when he turns me around so my rotating hips comes in front of his, and he puts my hands behind his neck.

- Do they teach you that at the player school? I ask and lean my head against his shoulder.

- I haven't attended that, he says and dips me softly down to the floor in his arms and smiles with perfect timing to the end of the song. I'm having a hard time not to let him get to me and try to collect my self when the song is finished.

- Could you help me do the taxes for my business someday? He asks suddenly and unexpected.

- Of course! You can stop by any day at the shop. I say, glad to be of help. We part and I approach Olof at the bar. I'm wondering what he is thinking? It must be written all over my face that this was more than just dance to me?

- Looking good Anna! He says and looks happy. I sigh from relief that he is not like others.

- Do you want anything? He asks

- A glass of white wine please, I say with gratitude and sit down in a chair to collect myself some more. An unknown man comes and sits down right next to me. He begins to chat while Olof comes and has to sit in front of me. He's English and really chatty. I let him talk and answer his questions and hope he understands I am not really interested in him although I am having a polite conversation.

- Can you check when the bus leaves? I ask Olof.

- Three minutes and the next in thirty! He says after going out in the could to check the display on the bus station.

- I better run then! I say and jump out of my chair to grab my things under another chair. I put on my sweater and wind jacket in a hurry, grab my boots and back packet by the hand and hurry outside on my high heels in the snow. I will change them on the bus.

-Good night Anna! Olof says, who followed me out and laughs, hugs me and shakes his head.

- I'm playing Cinderella again! I'm getting good at it. It's soon midnight and I have to hurry! I say and remember once I started changing my shoes waiting for the bus when I hadn't finished when the bus came... almost dropping the one that was loose and my boot on the other... Another time I dropped a shoe and a man came and give it to me. Don't remember who it was.. but he said he was the prince and thought about keeping it and visit me at home instead.

A few days later David comes to the shop. My heart beats faster as soon as I see him. His smile and Bambi eyes are irresistible.

- Hi David! Nice to see you! I say and we hug each other.