The free will ( eng)

New Years Ewe

Olof arriveves on New year's and help me pack just as planned, after a few hours Antony enters the door uninvited again and jealously scrutinise Olof.
- I'm going home now Anna, Olof says suddenly.
- What? I stare at him.
- I need to shower and change.
- I don't understand ? You promised to help me on this day? Didn't you BRING CLOTHES? I say with panic in my voice. I counted on you? !
- No Anna, I planned to go home and change.
- But you have only been here two hours and we were going to have a cosy dinner together?
Olof have stopped at the stairs and looks guilty when he sees my expression.it was just typical. Couldn't he have TOLD me that before so I could have planned my time better? I had no margins. This was just like when Miguel promised to help the day before my tenants was moving in and just left me after breakfast.

- I can eat with you! Anton says intensivly like its not even a choice. I stare at them both from one to the other, my mind spinning like crazy. This is not how I imagined my New Years evening. I dont know what to say? I had looked forward to this so long.

- Okay , I mumble and consider if I really rather wouldnt want to eat alone? And how would I explain that??

- It wont take long, we will have time to eat as well, Olof says before closing the door.

-Iḿ going home to shower and change too, Anton says and leaves. Suddenly I am all alone again. My phone breaks the silence.

- Hi Anna, it's Jackie! How are you doing?

- Well, itś plenty to do and pack left and Olof just left and I don't know if I am gonna make it in time.

- My date just cancelled and I thought I could tag along with you too? Is that okay with You?

I thought for a second if I could say no to her too? She would also ruin the evening. I couldn't .

- Sure Jackie, but I dont think there are any tickets left.

- I already called and checked and they said they could fix me a seat, she says and I am not surprised she didn't ask me first. Did she even have a date?

Okay, we will be there shortly before it begins to have a drink in their nice bar. Inwards I sigh deeply. I like Jackie but this was supposed to be our our night together that we had looked forward to all year. She would be the fifth wheel under the wagon and I would have to share Olof on the dance floor. The time was already cut short

- I call you when I leave. What clothes should I wear?

- Think Nobel dinner, people are dressed to their teeth, I say and hang up. I didnt have time to chat. I work a few more hours concentrated and stressed before Anton shows up again, all dressed up.

- I need to get dressed, I say and go to the bathroom to wash up. I don't have time to take a shower. I would have loved to feel the hot water relax my muscles. I go in my closet and put on a real party dress that sparkles with light and is perfect to dance with. I fix my hair and put on some more make up, Olofs perfume and exclusive jewellery that matches the dress in black and silver. It will have to do. I feel bothered that Anton is there when Olof shows up. He is dressed in a dark suit with a red tie.
- Hi! You look very handsome and elegant! I say sincere although I'm still disappointed in him leaving me in need.
- Hi Anna! You too! He says and smile big, We walked to Hilton and I didn't feel comfortable with Anton being with us. It was an uneasy feeling between us all. I choose a table with the best view over the sea and hang my coat over the chair. I didn't like to sit like this all dressed up with bare skin in front of Anton who hit on me so hard all this time. I tried to keep a conversation going.
- What's your high and low moments of the year ? I asked
- My high was definitely our trips to Feather islands , Olof says. Both times, I enjoyed every second, he says and I see how Anton freezes and stare at me with hate in his eyes. I just wanted to disappear. He had probably expected us to go there together and I hadn't even told him I had been there with Olof, twice.
-My low was when I got sick and high when my shop got sold, I stutter.
- My low was when I lost my coffee shop and high when I got a job at the hotel, Anton says and stares at us both. The negative energy in the air is making me very uncomfortable. I look down on my plate and concentrate on my food. Antons eyes could have killed me.