Wounded

Chapter 25

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"Because if it wasn't for him I'd be dead right now!" I yelled, causing Luke's anger to deflate slightly. He scrunched his face up in confusion as he processed my words.  I knew that there was no way he wouldn't get confused considering what I had just told him.

"Explain." Luke huffed impatiently. I could see the pain in his eyes as he spoke. The pain that I had caused.

"You remember when I took that walk when we were staying at Nonno and Nonna's house?" I asked.

"Yeah. That was when you came home and started cutting." Luke nodded.

"I had planned on killing myself that night." I explained. "Everything was just too much with Mum telling me to get over myself basically, so I went on my walk and called James."

"Whoah, I'm officially lost!" Luke interrupted me, causing me to glare at him.

"Mum is sick of my attitude and told me our grandparents are too old to deal with my drama basically."

"Jai..." Luke looked shocked that our mother had actually said something like that to me. I don't understand why. I've been nothing but a hassle to her lately.

"It's not a big deal, Luke." I sighed.

"Yes! It is! You're feelings matter, Jai! You act like they don't but they really do!" Luke ranted antruly at me.

"Just...Luke, please. Drop it."

"Fine, I will for now, but this isn't over yet!" Luke informed me. "Now, how does James fit in to all of this?"

"I called him to say goodbye." I stared down at my hands as I gave Luke time to process what I had just said.

"James knew you were planning that, yet he didn't call me?" Luke asked furiously.

"Yes. No. I don't know." I sighed. "I don't think he really understood what I was telling him to be honest."

"But, he didn't think to tell anyone? That's serious Jai. What would have happened if you had gone through with it? I would have lost my twin and I don't honestly think I could take it if anything were to happen to you."

"You'd be surprised..." I mumbled, earning a glare from Luke. "Can we just drop this? I just want to hang out with my twin brother for once."

Luke but his lip. I could tell that he didn't want this conversation to end I couldn't blame him in all honesty, but at the same time I did. These were my problems, not his. I had to fix everything in my life that seemed to have fallen apart in the blink of an eye. This was my responsibility, not his.

"Jai, I don't think-"

"Please, Luke." I begged. I saw him hesitate even more before he reluctantly nodded his head in agreement.

"Okay. So, what do you want to do?" Luke asked. I thought about it. What did I want to do?"

"We could record a happy hour with Jake video." I suggested. Luke nodded thoughtfully.

"What is this, the third one? We should really just make a separate channel for our videos that's solely us." Luke suggested.

"What like a twin time?" I asked with a small chuckle. I did like the idea, though. It would be awesome to have our own YouTube channel outside of the Janoskians.

"No..." Luke trailed off thoughtfully. "More like Twin Talk Time. Yeah that has a nice ring to it. We could like talk about whatever we wanted to and it wouldn't have to strictly be a comedy channel. We could literally talk about anything."

"That would also help the fans get to know us." I mused. "They could learn what makes me Jai and you Luke. It'd be awesome."

"Yeah, and most importantly it would just be us. No Beau. No Daniel. No James. Just us being twins."

That did sound pretty good.

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When Luke and I finally made it home, we were met by an extremely angry Beau. I was confused, we had just skipped school. He used to do that all of the time. And then it clicked. We were supposed to have a Janoskians meeting right after school today. However, Luke and I never went to school today which caused us to forget all about it.

"Hey, Beau! Fancy meeting you here." Luke smiled brightly in an attempt to diffuse our older brother's anger at us.

"No, Luke. It's really not." Beau ground out, causing me to flinch back behind Luke slightly. "Seriously, Jai! Quit pretending to be afraid of me! It hurts that you would even act this way with me, the one person who's protected you through practically everything."

"No, not everything." Luke mumbled, causing me to elbow him in the side.

"You two are hiding something, aren't you?" Beau narrowed his eyes at us. I could see Luke struggling for an excuse, so I quickly intervened.

"It's just twin stuff, Beau, honestly. And I'm sorry. You're the best older brother that Luke and I could ask for!" I explained, batting my eyes at him. Beau's angry expression softened after hearing my words.

"Yeah you two aren't that bad either." Beau sighed.  "Anyways, there's big new. Janoskians' news. I kind of wanted to wait until everyone was together, but you two ruined that."

"What is it?" Luke asked curiously.

"There's this guy who manages celebrities that contacted me. He wants to manage us too, but that would mean making some big sacrifices." Beau continued. "Daniel and I are graduating this year so we don't have to worry. The two of you and James are a different story."

"What kind of sacrifices?" Luke and I asked at the same time.

"How would you like to drop out of school and move to America?"