Him (Leonardo dicaprio and young Johnny depp fanfic)

The rum diary

"So you finally called me back." Leonardo said. I sipped my coffee. "I honestly want to tell you that I didn't want to do this Leonardo." I sighed I couldn't get out what I was trying to say. "Jessica I know I just want to say sorry for everything I did to you and I know we can't be like we were because it's Just not realistic I'm different now." He explained. "So then what is this?" I asked. "I'm traveling again and I'll leave you alone forever and don't try to be nice okay. I know you want me away you just don't know how to tell me I just need to know if you still have any feelings for me." He held my hands. I sighed. "I don't I should just go." I got up but he grabbed my wrist. "You don't have to it's okay. It's okay if you love Johnny I've accepted that now I should attend to other things and so should you." He kissed my cheek.

"So how'd it go?" Johnny asked . "A bit dull and boring you don't want to know." I smirked as he smiled at me. "You didn't tell him didn't you." He uttered. "I told you I wasn't going to say anything make everything worse." I sat on his lap. "Why not mom's are so hot." He whispered. "Shut up." I licked my lips inhaling and exhaling. "What's wrong?" He added. "It's just I love you and I don't want this baby to ruin anything between us." I sighed. "Don't think like that I put that baby inside you because I love you. I'll always love you Jessica I've done every possible thing to show you that." He held my face and kissed me . The door bell rang. "Who's that?" I asked. "I'm not sure." He sighed. "Leonardo of course." He said. "Yes yes come in." Johnny added. "Jessica." He faked like as if he hadn't seen me barely 15 minutes ago. "Johnny what's he doing here ?" I clear my throat. "I'm sorry was I interrupting something?" He asked. "No no no." we both said. "So Why are you here leo ?" Johnny asked. "I don't really know I just wanted you okay." He explained. "Were okay Leonardo you can leave." Johnny spoke. "I just want one of you to not hate me." He said . "Leonardo we don't hate you. You've changed you have your own life your own friends you can do-." I ran to the bathroom. "What's wrong with her?" Leonardo asked. "Uh Hangover." Johnny hesitated. "Is she-" he asked . "Uh ..." Johnny paused. "Johnny!" I yelled. "Yes honey ?" I covered my mouth covering the stench of vomit . "Don't tell him" I whispered holding my hand to my mouth. "I would never darling ." He says and wraps his hands around me . "I stink" I said . "We should shower." He joked. "I need to showed you need to keep your mouth quiet I said putting his hands back. "Well that's not fun." He pouted. "Johnny!" "Fine ." He rolled his eyes and kissed my forehead. "Is everything alright ?" Leonardo knocked on the door. "Yes ." I said . "Go ." I whispered. "Is she okay?" Leonardo asked. "Yeah she's going to be fine let's go to the living room." He said . I turned on the water. I thought to myself about this baby about the engagement everything was happening so fast but was it worth it I ask myself this question all the time and I'm happy but what if I'm not good at this .

I put on some fresh clean clothes and brush my teeth. I step out of the bathroom . "Sorry I'm feeling a little under the weather." I explained. "Is everything okay?" Leonardo asked. "Yes Leo." I nod my head. "So is this actually happening?" He coughed. "Honey can you go run me some errands I want to talk to Leonardo ." I said . "Why now? we have a guest." Johnny whined. "Johnny we need water and milk and other things please go do it Leonardo will be here when you get back." I grinned my teeth together . "Okay okay he better be ." He pecked my lips and picked up the keys frowning his eyebrows at me. He closed the door behind him. "So what's wrong?" He asked. "I'm in love with him and I get this urge where I never want to leave his side but before you say anything I want to tell you that I'm having this weird feeling that something terribly wrong is going to happen and to let you know leo this is not a stunt I'm not making anything up . I don't want you to be the one held responsible for anything bad and I never want to be the one to screw things up. I can't do that he's unstable it's like I've found everything I've ever wanted but it just feels like something isn't right." I sighed. "Woah okay well slow down . Maybe you're just .. nervous and everything's just getting to your head jessica he treats you like every girl should be treated you shouldn't doubt that. He's showed you a million times that he'd do anything for you and I do mean anything all I want is for you to be happy and if your happy with Johnny then nothing should ever get between you." He held my hand . "Really? I'm just feeling a little uneasy I just love him so much ." It was this rather nostalgic I could slowly but not vividly tell that it was hurting him slightly. "I'm sorry I shouldn't be telling you this." I looked at my hands . "No you're fine. We didn't work out and I'm sorry . I'm so sorry for everything ." He apologized. "You don't have to feel bad anymore you just need to find yourself happiness that's all anyone could ask for. It's all anyone should deserve no matter who you are." I remarked . "I just don't think I'm quite very comfortable with everything like what you said was fine but I'm still in awe of everything ." He started . "No no I understand I was just really uneasy ." I sighed . He opened his arms and hugged me and Johnny came in through the door. "You're back ." I smiled . "Yeah what were you guys talking about while I was gone?" He asked . "Oh nothing just about you." I smirked pecking his lips. "Well I better get going I have to be in New York in two hours so it was good catching up and congratulations . "Did you tell him?" He asked . "Let it go." I whispered . "Tell me what?" He asked . "About our engagement ." I smiled grinding my teeth. "Are you sure." He squinted his eyes . "Yes yes I'm sure okay everything is okay ." I replied. "Is she sure ?" Leonardo asked. "I think yes but I'll let you know if she's not ." He chuckled . I rolled my eyes . "Okay I'll see you soon then." He smiled and left. "That was close." I sighed. Johnny stayed dead silent. "What's wrong?" I asked. "Are you seriously asking me that." He shook his head putting everything away. "Yes I love you." I said. "I don't know why I always waste my time on you do you even want to marry me?" He paused. "Of course what's wrong . What did I do?" I gave a concerned look. "That you don't care about me that's my problem." He answered. "Are you joking ?" I rose an eyebrow . "No I'm not joking he grabbed my arms . "Why don't you just run back to him ." "Ow that hurts . Don't be stupid Johnny ." I tried to let go. He let my arms go . "Is that really how you feel?" I asked. "I've been holding it in for so long and I'm tired of this shit like you can't do this to me anymore." He said . "I'm having your fucking child . I'm marrying you because I love you but you still want me to prove that how?" I cried. "You fucking embarrassed me in front of him. You hug him like he hasn't stabbed you in the back more than once." He scoffed. I walked away . "Where are you going?" He asked. "I've done so much for you. You act like you're the only one . You don't know how much I cried when you almost died you don't know how much I hated myself and how guilty I felt I wanted to be the one Johnny because I was going through hell without you in the end I'm here with you and what would you do if I left right now? Tell me what would you do?" I stared at him. "I'm sorry." He answered. "I love you I can't be without you don't you understand what I would do for you that's what I was talking about I was so worried something would go wrong because you're the person I never want to be without Johnny ." I said . He walked toward me. He kissed me . "I love you more than you could ever imagine sweet heart." He whispered. "Good." I whispered wiping my cheek.