glitch ↠ e.d

twelve - shots

"how do i look?" i brush off my ripped black jeans that matched my red, low cut crop top and stood in front of justin.

"sexy as hell," he smirks, "can you dress up like this more often?"

i roll my eyes as a laugh escapes my lips, "i feel too slutty."

"those are what abigail's parties are all about." he informs me, "we should start going now. it's nine."

i grab my charged phone off my dresser and walk down the stairs of my house with justin behind me.

"alright mom, i'm going to a party. i might sleep at nikki's. i'll text you at midnight and let you know what's going on." i say to her, stuffing on my black and white converse.

"alright honey." she yawns and closes her eyes again, "be safe. don't drink and drive."

"i would never." i tell her honestly, "love you."

once justin and i get into the car, he rolls down the windows and reverses out of the driveway. i reach for his radio to give us some music but he stops me.

"i wasn't going to confront you about this but it's really bothering me, allie." i furrow my eyebrows towards justin.

"what is it?" i fiddle with my fingers when i'm nervous, and i'm nervous right now.

"ronnie told me he saw you with ethan dolan last night at this pizza place." he spills out. "what the hell were you doing with him?"

my mind immediately turns blank but i think of something right off the bat. "ms. jackson and mr. lawson combined our class to do a project together, we're partners so we went out and discussed how we were going to make our power point."

"so you go out for pizza?" he asks, raising an eyebrow.

"he was hungry." i lie.

"why don't you guys just work on it at school?" he asks, bombarding me with questions.

"it's supposed to be done at home, we have no class time to work on it." i reply.

"you could've told me." he mumbles.

i frown and immediately replay all of mine and ethan's memories in my head, regretting every single one of them. "i know, i will next time. i'm sorry."

we pull up to abigail's driveway and i can't help but notice the different coloured lights, flashing on her house. i immediately regret coming when i see intoxicated people lying on the grass, laughing hysterically with red solo cups surrounding them.

"are they always like this?" i ask, nervously. trying my best to keep up with his pace as he races to the front door, music was already blaring in my ears and i haven't even stepped into the house yet.

"yeah, hurry up." i feel frustrated with the way he's acting. i'm following him like a lost puppy and he doesn't even care that i've never been to one of these outrageous parties before.

the aroma of marijuana hits my senses as soon as i step foot inside. i feel a wave of anxiety wash over me as i stand in a room with intoxicated and high people that some, i've never even seen before.

justin was pulled away into a group of guys, i immediately think to find nikki but knowing her, she's most likely in one of the bedrooms upstairs.

no. she isn't pregnant, by the way.

i manage to squeeze through some drunk females lip locking against the wall and i finally find a bathroom, i open the door and lock myself in it. stressing out as i see myself in the mirror.

i shouldn't be here. is all i think to myself before leaving the bathroom, i'm faced a crowd again and push my way through, making my way to the kitchen where i saw everly, finally someone i knew.

"allie!" she slurs, "take this shot! it's the bomb!"

i frown when i realize how intoxicated she is, i shrug and swallow the burning liquid-- i feel myself make a face of disgust, setting the shot glass back down.

"have another one with me," everly laughs, pouring straight vodka into the shot glass. i don't see what the point of not drinking it would be, so i down another one. soon enough, two turned into three and three turned into four.

now i'm dizzy as hell, holding some pink alcoholic beverage in a red solo cup as i stumble around trying to find justin.

i can't see straight anymore, everyone's dizzy and my brain is starting to hurt. my legs feel numb but i keep sipping that drink as i walk into room after room.

finally pushing through a crowd, i'm back at the front of the house where the stairs are, wobbling on each step i take, i'm determined to find nikki since i give up on justin.

"nikki!" i shout obnoxiously, "nikki!"

i open a door and i'm immediately being screamed at by a boy and girl in a dark room, i rush to shut the door and completely erase the image of what i think i walked in on.

my eyes start to blur as i continue opening doors,

"nikki!" i shout, turning the knob to a bathroom with no people. i frown and continue searching.

opening the last door i found, i've lost hope in finding my boyfriend and bestfriend.

when the door pushes open, my eyes land on people, and i physically feel my heart breaking into pieces.