glitch ↠ e.d

thirty two - exposed

josie and i laugh as we walk down the hall to my locker, she was telling me about jokes about grayson that were making me die of laughter. him and ethan are very much alike.

"did you see grayson's busted lip, it must've hurt so bad." i tell josie. she looks at me confused.

"he has a busted lip? where is he?" she panics.

"you were with him yesterday, didn't you see it? him and ethan were playfully wrestling and gray gave ethan a black eye." i explain.

"grayson doesn't have a busted lip, allie" josie tells me, softly. "grayson and ethan never wrestled. i was with grayson all day."

"so grayson isn't the one who gave ethan a black eye?" i ask, worriedly.

she shakes her head, "i think he lied to you"

i was angry, why would he lie to me? did he think i wouldn't find out? obviously i would see grayson around the halls and find out he wasn't injured.

i shook my head, hearing the bell ring for fifth period.

josie and i parted separately into our own classes. today was pretty much our last day in school, i'm positive we were having a year end assembly in the gymnasium which would consist of a slideshow throughout our years and students talking.

while my teacher did attendance i messaged ethan.

who gave you the black eye. i want the truth.

i waited a few moments before he responded.

grayson.

i was angry. he was lying.

"okay class, please show yourselves to the gymnasium quietly, we will be attending the year end assembly." ms. arthur tells us, bluntly. i hate her as a teacher.

i don't understand whoever married her boring ass.

i got out of my seat and joined everyone else in my class that were already up and walking, i was texting ethan a numerous amount of times yet he never replied, or read them. if he wants to play it like that, fine.

we approach the gymnasium and i take a seat on the bleachers along with the rest of the school, squinting my eyes to see if i could spot my boyfriend anywhere.

i check my phone constantly, what the hell is going on?

"okay students, as we all know. in a short amount of days, the grade twelves are leaving us. so we set today up, for them. a slideshow, a few words and all of that good stuff is in store." mrs. lawson announces, standing next to a few more grade twelve teachers and the principal.

as they all gave speeches, i grew worried. ethan's class was indeed in the gym, his teacher and classmates were sitting near me, i text him again.

where the fuck are you???

watching it deliver, i stare at the screen waiting for a bubble and three dots to appear. but it never did.

"as sad as it is, to let all of you bright young adults go, you're entering the real world with the knowledge that you have taken from our classrooms over these four years. we only wish you the best."

teachers rambled on and on, and as much as i wanted to enjoy and pay attention to this speech, ethan was all i could think about.

"so please. may you all enjoy the slideshow as we give you all seniors, a warm goodbye" my eyes scan across everyone seated, i see abigail next to justin, i see josie next to grayson, yet no sign of ethan.

the lights in the gymnasium flicked off and the bright light from the projector was all that we were looking at, with sentimental music playing in the background of each picture during the slideshow, i relaxed and decided to just pay attention to the moving moments flashing on the screen.

i look down into my lap as my phone flashes, hoping it was ethan but it was a twitter notification. then that's when my ears burned to the sound and my throat went dry.

i hear my self moan through speakers, and all eyes are gazed onto me, i look up at the projector and see my own very face, as i'm pleasuring myself. the video i sent to ethan.

i felt like my legs were numb, my eyes whelmed up with tears as i saw the teachers rush to take it off, the principal yelling  'something has gone wrong, who did this'

i only ever sent that to ethan, and now it's for everyone to watch. why would he do that to me, the aching in my chest was too strong but i stormed out of the gym in a hurry, my blurry vision making it hard for me to see my surroundings, i'm standing in a hallway and to my right, my heart broke a little more.

ethan was kissing nikki aggressively, and she was certainly enjoying it. when a loud sob escapes my mouth, ethan is rushing to my side.

"allie!" he exclaims, his arms wrapping around me.

"get the fuck off of me you asshole!" i shout loudly, in between sobs. "how c-could you do this to me? i thought you loved me"

his face fills with panic, "baby what're you talking about?"

sadness had taken a pause upon my emotions, i grew livid, my hands clenching into fists as i beat on his chest like a drum.

he doesn't do or say anything, he lets me attack him, he lets me scream and cry. he knows what he did, he knows that broke me.

"t-that v-video was for your eyes o-only, and you put it up for the whole school to see? you're sick! you're twisted!" i scream, watching nikki hide a laugh behind her hand.

"and now you're making out with nikki?" i shout, "i hate you!"

ethan's eyes fill with tears, "allie! you have it all wrong"

"no i don't! i know what i saw, i shouldn't have trusted you. i hate you so much, ethan." i sob.

"allie. please don't say that! let me explain." he begs, he grabs my arm.

"don't touch me!" i scream, "you're a fucking piece of shit, you're dead to me, i can't believe how heartless you are! did i not mean a damn bit to you?"

"allie, you mean everything to me, i love you! please don't walk away from me" by now, his eyes are flowing with tears and i can't even understand the words escaping his red, swollen lips. "you have to let me explain, i never wanted to hurt you!"

i feel my hands trembling as i saw my next words, "don't call me." i smash my phone on the ground, right in front of him, "and don't you ever fucking talk to me again, i hate you."