glitch ↠ e.d

twenty six - confession

ethan

i don't know what it is about allie, i don't know if it's how effortlessly beautiful she really is, i don't know if it's her sarcastic yet serious sense of humour, i don't know if it's her soft, angelic voice or simply just the way she is. whatever it is.

i love her

and i've never felt that for anybody before. allie was certainly different, very different. she was real and genuine, she was compassionate and gorgeous.

i love everything about her. her presence never fails to brighten the mood in the room along with her obnoxious laugh that i could hear for hours, she alway smells like coconut and lavender and she's always so positive about everything. she's too perfect to be with someone like me.

apart of me was confused as to why she's still with me, let alone why she agreed to date me. she wasn't with justin anymore so who cares if i show him the nude that started it all, i was expecting her to drop me right away, but she's still with me.

i have something that i need to confess to her before we take our relationship even more serious than it already is, something that will bother me everyday until i get it off my chest, praying that she won't get mad at me.

on my drive home from work, i had called her and asked her to come over saying it was something important and that it needed to be discussed now.

my parents weren't home and neither was grayson, he was out with josie gathering things for their pool party tomorrow.

when i pull into my driveway, i quickly rush inside and change out of my work uniform, throwing on some sweats and a tee shirt.

only minutes later, allie was knocking on my door, i ran down the stairs and opened the door. she was wearing sweats like me, my tee shirt and her hair was thrown into a messy bun. she looks sexy as hell.

"were you napping?" i chuckle, feeling her arms wrap around me. i hug her back, rocking us back and fourth.

"yeah, today was a long day." she sighs against my chest. "but you said there was something important we needed to talk about."

"there is," i swallow, my mouth went dry as i lead her upstairs. we walk into my bedroom and i can sense the nervousness on her face.

"what is it babe?" she asks me, "are you okay?"

i nod, "i just hope you are."

"what are you talking about?" she asks. "you're worrying me."

"i need to confess something that i lied about" i breathe, staring at her petite figure.

"what did you like about, ethan?" she sounds angry yet disappointed, i didn't want her to hate me.

"you know how you sent me that nude?" i tell her, "and i screenshotted it and told you that if you didn't sleep with me, i'd send it to justin?"

she nods, slowly. motioning for me to keep talking.

"allie," i shut my eyes, "i don't have your nude, i deleted it right away."

allie's mouth immediately drops open. "w-what?"

"baby." i frown, reaching for her, "are you mad?"

"don't touch me." she says through gritted teeth, backing away from me, "what do you mean, you never had it? you just deleted it right away? why did you blackmail me with it then?"

my heart began to ache, "at first, i thought it would be all fun and games to mess around with you and blackmail you to sleep with me, not thinking much would happen. but then we started hanging out and we got to know each other and i-i don't know, it's not about the picture anymore. i never had the picture in the first place, i just wanted to sleep with you but then, my emotions changed the whole perspective."

"what the hell were you thinking would happen? did you just want to get in my pants? you blackmailed me ethan! i was happy with justin." she shouts, angrily.

i furrow my eyebrows at her, "don't go blaming me for what happened between you and justin. i didn't ruin your relationship with him, he was the one who slept with your best friend!"

"but none of that would've happened if my phone didn't fucking glitch!" she retorts, "he probably wouldn't have slept with nikki if you didn't fucking blackmail! you could have simply told me it was okay and i could've carried on with my relationship with justin!"

"fine then!" i shout, "if you want to go fuck justin instead go ahead! he cheated on you because you never fucked him! and if you sending him the nude is what was going to make him love you, is fucking ridiculous because i fell in love with who you are, not your body!"

immediately i regret my words.

"w-wait," she mumbles, "y-you're in love with me?"

i pull at my hair and groan, "yes, allie. i'm in love with you."

"r-really?" she kept stuttering which frightened me.

"it doesn't matter now! you would have been happier with justin than you are with me so go fuck him and just forget about me." i spit back at her.

"no" she tells me, "i don't want justin, i want you, because i'm in love with you too, ethan."