Poems of Me

I Dont Know

20/4/14

Do you know what I feel deep down inside?

The pain I go through for the good to hide

Do you know why it's the bad rules I abide?

The morals of a sad delusional mind

Or why I simply do not talk or eat

Walk the hurt off and ignore the defeat

To get skinnier by the morals of she

Or to get more thin just for the love of he

All the twisted lies beneath my skin

The lack of friendship from within

The accursed figure of this whim

A perfect human, no, a waste of skin

The test to try this over more than enough

A war between me and the really good stuff

Love and safety is, in my mind, more than snuffed

Hatred and insecurity clings like dust

But why do I think this?

Why do I seem t'miss

All of the goodness

And hold the darkness?

Is my mind just plain deluded?

Has this been on too long, this feud?

Does my dream seem too crude for you?

Will I sit here, let the feeling stew?

I don't know.