I Hope To be There: Superflash

23. Death and Goodbyes

Barry POV
"Im sorry. About Kara." Oliver steps into the room. His blue eyes laying on the floor, as his face crumbles all together after mentioning her name. I look up and swipe my tears away.

"Yeah." Is all I manage to say. The windowless room makes the room cold and dark. Thats why I choose it. It kind of resembles my world right now. Oliver steps in closer and sits right next to me, not saying a word.

"You shouldn't be here." He breaks the silence and I push my hair back away from my face, knowing whats about to come.

"Then where should I be, Oliver? Telling her sister that Kara's dead or leaving flowers in her casket? Oh wait! We didn't find a damn hair from her! I didn't even have a chance say goodbye!" I snap.

"Death doesn't let us say goodbye, Barry." Oliver tells me.

"Well it should because its cruel, its heartbreaking, its inhumane!" I scream cupping my face into my hands. I stop because I cant breathe. Oliver pats my back.

"I know. But those people we lost make us who we are. They make us feel loved. They make us heroes. Because theres no saving lives without losing them, Barry. Want to say goodbye? Give everyone what she gave them...hope." I close my eyes and remain there for a minute.

"Funny how you don't really appreciate people until you lose them." I mutter under my breath, remembering how many times I hurt Kara.

"And even when they're lost. Those people still love you. The least you can do, is to do something with that love." He grabs my arm and places a letter on my hand. I look up to him, confused. He simply nods and walks away.

Slowly, I open the paper up.
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I haven't cried as much since my mother died. That letter was ment for a different day. Not a funeral. 

To be specific. It was ment for the day where she would've been wearing a white gown and I would be waiting for her at the end of the aisle.

I stare at my suit. My symbol. I look at it carefully and in my mind, echoes the question I was about to ask Kara.

"Kara, would you like to spend the rest of your life with me?' I whisper and hold the ring that was going to be her's, close to my heart

Tears slide down my face. But inside me theres nothing more than the wish to do what Oliver said. To give the people what Kara gave me: hope.

Iris POV

"I still don't trust you." Cisco points at Savitar, squinting his eyes at him. Savitar rolls his eyes and crosses his arms over his chest, looking at me for help.

"Cisco. You have to if you want Kara back." His face falls and it seems as if he just saw a ghost based on the white gloom over his face. Savitar notices immediately. After all, they were best friends at some point.

"What's hunting you Cisco?" Cisco's head snaps upward awkwardly after Savitar's question. He seems to fumble with his words for a while. I furrow my eyebrows.

"Nothing. Just...never mind. We better get moving." I make a mental note to talk to him later but for now we have to concentrate on Kara, more specifically a way to get her back home.

I snap out of my thoughts when the alarm starts blaring and red lights flash all around the cortex. Cisco runs to the screens and scans the security cameras with Savitar right by his side.

"They're all shutting down. One by one...the cameras." CIsco has a look of horror on his face and Savitar just stands there, looking at me plainly confused.