Cold World

Chapter 19

Bre

I woke up againts Kyren's chest I smiled and got up well tried to get up. I look up and Kyren eyes were still closed but he tightened his grip around my waist.

"Dont go." He mumbled.

"I won't." I said smiling. He must be having a bad dream or something. Fuck I gotta pee.

"Uumm Kyren let go I gotta pee." I said tapping him. He groaned.

"No." He said.

"Ok then I guess you want pee all over you." I said and he pushed me away so fast. I laughed.

"Thats not even funny." He said mugging me.

"Love ya too." I said smiling. I went to the bathroom and peed. I walked out and seen that Kyren went back to sleep. I went downstairs and seen Mateo and Ayleo on the couch.

"Morning." I said softly.

"Morning sis." Ayo said and Mateo looked up at me. He hopped up and followed me to the kitchen.

"Bre can we talk." He said. I sighed and nodded my head.

"Ok look I'm sorry ok me and Tiara are not even serious and I'm trying to figure out a way to break it off with her. I never wanted her." He said.

"The why are you with her?" I asked.

"So when you went to the hospital I started smoking a lot and you know I don't smoke. Then when you went to foster care it made it even worse so one day I met Tiara and I was high asf like I didnt know what I was doing and we ended up fucking and then out of nowhere she started claiming I would tell her that we not together that was just a one night stand but she would start crying and you know I dont know what to do when a girl cry unless its you, Keke, or my mom. So yea and technically we aren't really together because she really just claimed me out of nowhere." He said I stood there not saying a word. To be honest I dont know what to say. I sighed and was about to say something until his "girlfriend" walked in there.

"Hey babe." She said kissing him.

"Umm wassup." He said staring at me. I looked away and just went to the refrigerator making me a fruit bowl.

I felt someone staring at me I looked up and it was Tiara and Mateo. Mateo looked a bit hurt why I dont fucking know. Tiara was mugging me.

"Hoe stay away from my man." Tiara said. Mateo was about to say something but I grabbed a knife and put that shit towards her throat. I had my hand gripping the front of her shirt and had the pointy part of the knife towards her throat and I look at her.

"Bitch I would kill you in 0.0 seconds dont speak to me, look at me, breath around me, and everything else because I am not the one. Plus Mateo doesn't want your ass so shut that shit up." I said to her not giving af. Then I walked up to Mateo and kissed him softly.

"Maybe I forgive you." I said smiling. I looked at her. "Say something now dumb bitch." I said giggling.

I grabbed my fruit bowl and walked in the living sitting next to Ayo. He looked at me then my fruit bowl and took some of my fruit. I laughed at his dumb ass.

"How you feeling about everything that's been going on?" Ayo asked.

"To be honest I have all type of emotions. Like I'm scared of boys but I'm somewhat ok being around you, Kyren, and Mateo. I just sometimes get a little scared when you guys get to close to me. Mateo pissed me the fuck off with the bitch he got in the kitchen because of the simple fact he promised me that I was never going to get hurt again. He broke that promise. Then he come up with a girlfriend. That shit hurt me a lot that shit really went straight to the heart. I love Mateo a lot but I can't give him my love if he do shit like the shit he doing now. I have no family they all hate me for some apparent reason. I just wished my parents were here with me I really miss them a lot. Until this day I believe its my fault they died. I told them I had a bad feeling about that day. But barely tried to stop them. If I would've tried harder they wouldve stayed home and they would still be here but no they're gone and never coming back." I said I started crying. "Fuck now im crying, I'm fucking tired of crying I'm tired of feeling angry. I'm tired of feeling empty. I'm tired feeling like I'm not worth anything. I'm tired of everything. I just want to go drown and just die." I said. Ayo looked at me.

"Bre dont say that you are worth something dont let people say other wise. Its not your fault that your parents died. Its nobody fault. And let us help you let us help you from being so angry and crying so much and feeling so empty." He said. He hugged me and that was a rap I busted out crying non stop.

Mateo

I sat in the kitchen listening to Bre and Ayo's conversation. I'm so stupid I really feel bad that I did that. I should've kept myself together. I knew better not to any stupid shit but I did some stupid shit anyway.

"Mateo stop worrying about that hoe she just wants your attention." Tiara said. I looked at her like she was stupid. And I almost slapped her.

"Get out." I said.

"What Mateo." She said. I shook my head.

"GET THE FUCK OUT BRO DAMN YOU RUINED MY CHANCE WITH THE GIRL I LOVE THE MOST. WE ARE NOT TOGETHER AND WE NEVER WAS SO GET THE FUCK OUT!" I yelled mad asf. Then she started to cry I dont have time for this.

"I don't care about your tears get the fuck out and dont come near me, my family, or my friends again." I said calmer and she ran out crying. I got rid of her now I just need to get the girl I love the most.