It's Just Us

✘ Idiot ✘

I'm so insecure,

So scared,

So afraid,

That I'm going to lose you.

I lost Him,

At the 6 month mark.

"You're just.. it's getting boring. And it's always another problem..-"

You were right,

But,

I can change...

It's going to take so much time.

And the end result might be a girl you would've never loved.

Can you stand by me?

Through the change?

Do you want out?

To leave?

You don't know...

I cry at night,

I think of ever wrong I've ever done to you or to her.

It haunts me to this day.

Wanting to be someone who isn't so sad.

Some who doesn't let her past control her.

But,

It's so hard to pretend none of that ever happened.

Remember,

When I was jealous of her?

I was wrong then.

Remember,

When I was so worried I cut myself over you?

I was wrong somewhat there.

Remember,

Those times I played the victim when I was the culprit?

Remember,

Those times I started an argument over nothing?

Remember,

When you told me things and helped me go through them?

Because,

Lately,

I've been changing..

And..

I don't wan to Change