It's Just Us

How Do I Tell You I'm Dying

It's not like I'd want to cause you trouble,

To keep ruining possibilities,

For better things.

I don't try to act,

I just do.

I said once before,

I hid demons inside of me,

That pills can only slow it down.

In the end,

Everything has to die?

The evil has to be vanquished,

For the good to prosper?

Am I the evil,

In all of those fairy tales?

Why do I smile and laugh for you,

But then cry at night,

Believing that I'm ruining everyone's lives,

Including yours?

Why do I feel as though,

You'd rather be with someone else?

When you've told me differently constantly?

My biggest question,

Is,

Why do I feel as though I'm not good enough for you?

Because I feel as though you deserve someone,

Who's not always depressed,

Someone who never causes you pain,

or makes you angry on occasions.

I just wish I could erase myself,

Remove the stain on everyones lives,

Maybe I could join Elaine.

I wouldn't feel so hurt anymore,

I know you'd hurt for a while,

But in the end,

Let's be honest,

Everyone would forget about me,

In a little while.

Eventually,

You won't even remember who I was.