It's Just Us

ღIt's Been A Whileღ

This book I made,

Is so I can tell you things,

That I can't say,

Out loud.

Brother will be married,

My sister is herself,

You are forever,

You.

But,

Today,

I fear there is something wrong,

It's wrong,

But,

I can't explain it.

It's a feeling inside,

Like I want to die,

Because,

I know,

That in the back of my head,

You'll find a better match.

'I am only a temporary measure,'

Right...

It's been four months,

Yet,

I still feel like,

Something's wrong.

I wish I could navigate and find,

What's causing such,

Distress.

It's been a while since...

We last really talked about things,

We've acted weird,

With just us...

But now,

Do things seem different to you?

Am I alone in my thoughts again?

When she said 'pity',

It haunted me for so long,

Just now I'm starting to heal from it.

It's not as if you'd know...

I write these for you to understand,

To know the pain I go through..

I feel myself changing,

In the night sky becoming new,

But,

My dear,

That this change,

  I fear, 

Wasn't for you.