It's Just Us

A False Sun Shines

Do you remember how you broke me down?

It's been a while now.

Have you found the one girl?

You know,

The girl whose perfect?

Blonde hair,

Probably curvy,

Nice skin,

Popular.

You realize your mom called me and your other girlfriend,

Dikes?

You tell me,

How me and her,

Were supposed to bite our tongues,

And let them insult us?

Or even let you,

Be a jerk to us?

You wanted to be in Photography,

You told me to join too.

I was an idiot,

I let you in,

Everyday you caused me more and more pain,

I saw your texts,

But I let it slide.

Your "Bestie" told me everything,

that you said,

and did to her.

You tried to hit on her,

And then I got news that you did it again,

From my oldest friend.

I told you how sweet she was,

How she always put me and her first,

Above everything.

And she tells me,

You said you love her?

Do you understand what love means?

Is love to you,

Moving form person to person?

Well,

That's just your heart.

I can't control it,

You pretend to be a gentleman,

And then behind our backs,

You flirt with another.

I began to question myself,

"What do I think love is?"

I didn't know back then.

Until you showed who you were.

A liar.

I had fake hope in us,

fake faith we'd work.

I wasted Freshmen year,

Pretending for you.

I was sickened at my own actions,

Because I let myself believe I was in love,

When in reality,

I was just in denial.

I've realized,

It's more than being used for entertainment.

It's laughs,

Fights,

Tears,

Pain,

and it's Friendship,

And honesty,

and trust.

You didn't trust me at all,

It was constant fights,

Constant one-sided tears,

Constant one-sided pain,

We were never true friends.

You weren't ever honest with me.

You never laughed with me unless your side chick was with you.

You wondered why I was always so quiet and curled up in my corner,

Well,

I didn't know what to do,

I had mentally cornered myself to you.

I let my walls down so quick,

I thought after 6 months,

You'd love me.

In the end,

I was just one of your innocent victims.

You had a toxic kiss,

and you share it with those,

you know have good hearts.

You destroy us,

And then move on.

I hate to tell you,

Eventually,

You'll fall head over heels for someone,

And they'll crush your heart in the dirt,

Just like you did with your,

Victims.

You so heartlessly,

Ruined.

About an Ex from Freshmen Year at High School~!