It's Just Us

ღ Who I am ღ

Time to tell you,

Who I really am.

It's time for you,

To choose,

If you can accept who I am.

I'm,

Depressed,

I have anxiety,

I'm weird,

I'm out of the box,

I'm different.

I have anger issues,

I have mental issues,

I have family issues,

I have problems.

Everyday,

I wake up,

Thinking,

I'm pushing everyone away,

And,

Lately,

I have been.

I'm paranoid,

I'm hard to even get to know.

My trust,

I have issues with it.

I can't fully trust anyone,

Without fears,

Without the devil piercing,

his claws of paranoia,

Into,

My back.

Planting seeds,

Of doubt,

In my mind.

I cause many people to run away,

I come off so mean.

Even when,

I try to hold myself,

I fall,

And,

it leaves.

Each word,

That I say,

Makes Him,

Drag his claws deeper into me.

He tries,

To show me,

Pain.

But,

I've lived with His claws,

In my back,

For most of my life.

I found you,

And He realized,

I was happy.

The claws got deeper,

The seeds of Doubt,

Were planted faster.

All He wanted,

Was for me to scream.

I held myself back from screaming,

But,

The only issue,

With holding back,

Is I take it out,

On those around.

In the long run,

He causes me pain,

And because,

I hide it,

I upset and anger,

Those around.

These things,

I've known they're my fault.

It's becoming more of a death wish,

Everyday,

They only get deeper.

Shredding my back,

Skin's not a problem,

Not to Him.

He whispers in my ear,

Telling me it's okay,

As His claws,

Sink deeper in.

That's,

Who I am.

No one,

Yet,

Has tolerated me for as long as you have.

He says you'll leave,

Just like everyone else.

And it kills,

To have Him whisper those words,

Each,

And,

Every,

Day.