Whispers Of Our Soul

Happiness

i'm happy you said
i'm actually, truly happy.
and my heart broke
because even though you were happy
we hadn't talked in weeks
we only nodded at each other in the halls

you were the happiest you had been in weeks you said
and i love that your happy
but there was a time
when you were happy with me
a time when i didn't have to text you late at night because i know she falls asleep early.
and i know the voices in your head keep you awake.

it's been sitting there. your happiness. sitting and collecting dust in the back of my mind
i knew it would happen
because she was there and for some reason that made you forget about me
but it has finally hit me
it's starting to sink in

you are happy.
but not with me; i'm not apart of that anymore.
i am glad you have your happiness
because that's what you deserve
but i'm selfish by nature
and i want some of your happiness
to be with me

i don't know what happened
i told you everything. every single detail about my life
etched into paper for you to see
and you gave me the story of your life too
but now we hardly talk
we hardly see each other

so maybe i don't love you anymore
but darling i can miss you
and i do
i miss you so much
i miss my best friend
but i can't tell you

because you are happy
and if that's what it takes
to keep you going
for me to keep my distance
then so be it
because darling you deserve

your happiness.