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Life is not a matter of holding good cards, but playing a poor hand well

Dear wattpadders!

It´s been a while, yeah? Lots have happened. Like today, I really thought the guys in my class were cool. But some of them just proved me wrong. I feel so frustrated. I don´t know what´s up with me recently, but I think that the problems are due to my lack of sleep. I sometimes get headaches, and I´m starting to forget things. It´s really scary. So, today I forgot my phone. And I realized it after a minute that I left it on my locker. Turns out that the boys, C, P and T had it. They teased me at the beginning and didn't wan't to return my phone and I can admit that I thought it was playful and fun. But when I really begged for my phone they just didn't return it and I guess that´s what got me so disappointed and mad. The fact that they didn't know when to stop. In my opinion, they totally crossed the line. I almost started to cry because I was so frustrated and I didn´t want to talk to C, who had my phone. It was then he returned my phone.

Otherwise, I guess life has treated me well. Well, obviously not that well because I have 3 or 4 test next week.

I still have my celebrity crush on 5SOS. I just hate that I can´t get over them. They´re funny, and I really love their attitude to their fans, and of course their music. Whenever I feel down I just listen to them.

Oh, I haven´t told ya´ll, A and I went to a friend´s bbq. I had told her my secret about D asking me out on a movie date kind of. And I clearly told her that I didn´t want her to tell anyone. Guess what, she told the whole group that were there. The worst part is that the ones who went to the bbq were all of D´s friends. I don´t know if they told him. But by the looks of how he chose to sit next to me in chemistry I guess no one has told him, thank god.

I don´t know what´s up with me, but when I find out that someone is intrested in me, I kinda get scared. I guess I´m just scared of the unknown. I mean, why ME, out of everyone. I don´t even love or believe in myself. How are other supposed to do it?

By the way, I just want to congratulate my mom, it´s her birthday today. Even though she won´t see this post. I want to thank her for everything. I couldn´t ask for a better mum. She deserves everything in the world, and a little more.

I guess that was all on my heart today.

xoxo

thebigdreamer