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Good things comes to those who wait

Dear diary!

Today I´ve been playing badminton, yesterday too, though that I my arm was hurting. Well, I am a fighter, a little. I lost my singles and double but won my first mixed double match which I´m pretty proud over. They say that if you lose, it´s the guy's fault, but if you win the credit goes to the girl. But I´m pretty disappointed that we lost out match today, I feel like we´re much better than our opponents. But as I always say, life goes on. I just have to practice more I guess.

Good things comes to those who wait, true stroy? Well not always. Sometimes we wait for nothing. Sometimes, it´s worth the wait. And sometimes, the things we wait for is a disappointment. As for me, I´m not a patient girl, I hate to wait. I am the type to make someone wait for me, but I´m not willing to wait for someone else. Guess that´s a bad thing with me. I don't like to take risks either, I´m so afraid to fail. Fail in life, everything in general. Gosh, I have to stop thing negative things about myself and boost my self esteem. I hate myself sometimes, just wish that I was taller, slimmer, hotter and all those things.

So, my whole body is aching from yesterday´s matches. And tomorrow I have school. Just a while ago I went to my childhood friend S, but she didn't have time for me, she was going to study history or something. Damn. I am so forever alone lol. I´m hoping to find some inspiration soon so that I can continue to write on my stories that I at the moment has put on hold. Well, I´m so happy that my story has about 50 votes and so many reads, thank you everyone!

Am I the only one that want's to live a more exiting life? I want to live in like England or USA or Australia, I love school uniforms lol. Yeah, tell me that I am crazy but I think that school uniforms are cute! And also, activities after school sounds like fun! Where I live there´s nothing. Just study, and study!

Well todays lession for me is, you can't always be on the top, sometimes you just have to step down and breathe for a while.

XOXO