Reveries & Wonders

Have you ever experienced?

Have you ever experienced?

Have you ever experienced arguing with your mom all day?

Like she's mumbling about how the wheat was planted alive,

and how her pinky finger was almost chopped off by a machine,

and how lucky I am to be alive at this point.

Have you ever experienced being bullied in school?

When there's no one to ask for help and save your heart,

and the person you want to get comfort with is busy,

Busy on her work and making your life easy?

Have you ever experienced standing in the middle of the road?

With the stoplight flashing green and you're just there,

waiting for a Death God to capture your soul,

and wishing to be free from all the pain?

Have you experienced greeting the darkness with a smile?

Every time your friend depression stops by on your window,

and anxiety follows and knocking loudly on your door,

Darkness is there to swoop you on its arms to fall asleep?

Have you ever experienced to dream one day,

when you are not you, but your mother's identity

And you're crying because your boss humiliated you,

calling you stupid, fish-brain and a design of the house?

Have you ever experienced to be raised by different families?

Every years on your life, you're living on a different house,

working without salary, but having education in exchange,

and no complains had ever come out from your mouth.

Have you ever experienced to travel on a different town,

to work on a rich and terrifying woman with a title called CPA,

who taught you how reality sucks and how to survive,

and became your second mother after some time?

Have you ever experienced to fall in love with a guy?

Who is imperfect but has the guts to stay by your side,

whatever the problem is, he's there to support you,

and gives you love letters to express his affection?

Have you ever experienced to have a daughter for a first time?

A daughter in that same guy who disappeared the moment he knew,

that you're womb is carrying a baby he can't be proud of,

and rode an airplane to escape from the destiny he should have faced?

Have you ever experienced feeling nothing but pity,

for yourself and for the baby that's in your tummy,

who's about to learn the true meaning of living,

in this world full of sadness and grieving?

Have you experienced letting those tears all night,

while flashing a smile when the sun rises on the sky,

thinking that you should be strong for your daughter and family,

because life has the habit of crashing you down unexpectedly?

Have you ever experienced to wake up while your Mom's on your side,

sleeping and holding your hand with a dextrose prolonging your life,

and you cried when you remembered that you almost died in UTI,

while you're dreaming about your mom's past life.

Have you ever experienced to be on your Mom's shoes?

Not on reality, but on a complete figment of imagination,

that helped you to realize your mother's sacrifice all this time,

and you're there, trying to kill yourself because you say life's unfair.

Have you ever experienced to try to be happy again?

Because I tried, and now I have a little sister with me,

An old man who treated me like I'm his own child,

and a mother who finally felt complete.