POEM #1| Sickening

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TRIGGER WARNING

It sickening
How far you let yourself go
From eating, to starving
Saying this is how life goes

You're starving going hungry
Your mind is dizzy and
Your health is like a number scale
Weighing down your shoulders
Like the rest of your life is

You're busy playing mommy
While dad is up in heaven
While the real mother is
Too busy crying over
The picture in the mirror

You're sick, sick of this habit
Of looking at yourself
In the mirror wondering
Why are you so big
When you eat so little

The mother cried today
Complaining about her weight
Even though her weight is
Perfect, you still have to listen
To the sound of her throwing
Out her food in the kitchen

While, the 16-year-old spits out
Fowl words so vile
You don't even know where
She heard it from

But you're not allowed to
Correct her, you're a fool if you do
She'll turn into a great actress
And say she'll take her life
She won't it's all an act

The youngest sister is an
Eater, 97 pounds overweight
Battling the idea of diabeties
While she stuffs her face with cake
While the mother sucks on
Her cancer stick

This is it
This is my fucking life
Playing referee to whoever
Raises their knee

Hoping to get a peace of
Sleep while the 16-year-old
Screams about woman
In ways she shouldn't know

But that's my life
Picking up my mother when she falls
Even though the 16-year old heard
It all she ignores it because
Her phone is more important

This is MY life
Where I forget about the pain
Buried in my back and the limp
In my hip as the vile rises in
My throat hiding the scream
Locked in my throat

But it doesnt come out
Because I have to stay silent
This is who I am the
Robot who forgets.

Written By: Teha Brown aka WILTEDROSE213

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