TRIGGER WARNING
God I knew it
I knew I'd blew it
Flown away like a bird
with unclipped wings
Handcuffed to societies
Expectations, failing them
With grace as the continue
To mock my mistakes
My opinions are meek
As I battle the monsters
Behind desks, hoping to kick
Start a future I never thought
I'd have
Scared of the teachers with
Pencils, the students with
Ears so big the hear everything
Talking with mouths so big
The talk rumors untrue
My anxiety is bubbling, flowing
Through the roof like overflowing
The washer with bubbles
But its acid burning your fingertips
As you're are trying so hard
To touch the button of success
Your eyes are tired, black circles
Drowning in the people who mock your lack accomplishments yet
when you can't even get
out of bed because
Your so dizzy to the point you are sick
Your ankles are balloons, while
Your eyes have dots dancing beyond reach
Your bathroom trips seem like time on
An alarm clock waiting for you to
Get up in the morning for the school
Trip you just can't accomplish
You head feels like a hammer has
Attached itself to your skull, breaking
Your ears because some days you
Just cannot hear what everyone is
Saying around you like suddenly
Somebody took your ability to understand
Yet you continue to lie to yourself
It's Failing...
The walls you built up,
You continue to tell people your healthy
While the amount of food you consume
To hide the dizzy spells, and the moments
When you feel like you just might die
Are always forgotten
When your asked to loose weight,
Yet you can even eat the food at supper
Because you forgot you were hungry
Or You just never were
It's a failing battle
Terrified of the words a
Doctor might speak if you give
Them a blood sample of the syptoms
You have been feeling deep in
Your veins and your terrified of the result.
Your dad died of diabetes
Your mom damaged by a deadly stroke
Your boyfriend heart had an irregular heartbeat
Yet you pretend to be okay, surrounded by
All the things you must play it safe.
You have responsibilities
A role to play, you cannot
fail the mess you've made
Societies hold will have to wait
For their claim on you
Your brain is fries, so lost inside
With the depression sucking the
Life out of you, forcing you to
Think the very worst of every moment
No true release of emotion
Your afraid of failing
But that your greatest achievement
Yet nothing you've already done
Is worth anything in the eyes of the law
Because you didn't try
You're broken, failing
Your body is failing this world
You were born in a moment not right
You didn't fit in since birth
As the days tick on
You might just quit failing
And just quit all together
Sometimes you only can be
What you are on the inside
One day, I wont wake up
Because I cared more about
The world around me than
The body that failed me.
Written By: Teha Brown aka WILTEDROSE213
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HeartFelt Poetry| 18+
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