TRIGGER WARNING
What do I say, to make you believe
That this isn't a fairytale
But a battle against a villain, with
No happy endings ever.
I want to describe it as fog
Spreading through your bedroom
At night, with hands as black as
Night surrounding you as you
Close your eyes
But before you even float sleep
Thick hands wrap around your
Throat, strong with a sick laugh
That sends pain to your chest
Aches unbelievably rough
Long black tenticals of fog,
Entangling you in it's web
Slowly wrapping itself around
Your brain, feasting of your emotions
"Sadness" It whispers, like a wave
Sadness overwhelms you like a tide
Pulling you under
You can't break free, you don't understand why suddenly you
Feel so sad
"Pain" Like a stab in the chest,
Everything hurts
Your fighting a monster of fog
You hands glide through the monster
Like a ghost
"Your ugly" Suddenly your thinking
Of the numbers on the scale,
The way people look at you
The way people sneer as they look
At your body in disgust
"You should die" You think of the blade
You haven't touched in months
Everything becomes to real, you can't
Win
You're fighting so hard, lungs loosing
Air as it traps you inside this toxic
Fog
"You're alone" It sings, you look around
You and you watch people leave
Your friends, abandoning you
Your boyfriend says he doesn't love you
Your alone curled up in a ball
In a black room way too small
The walls are climbing higher
Your throat becomes tighter
The tears become unmanageable
Your lost, your trapped, your afraid
It's sucking you dry of your happiness
"Your unhappy" The smile you had fades
The bright light shining on you fades
The things you love become distant
You can't get out of bed, your eyes begging to shut out the nose
"Nobody would miss you." You believe it,
You think of all the times people left
You think of all the people have have judged
Your trapped, and you cannot think straight
It's like being under a drug, you want to be sober from
"I'm never going to leave." The smoke hugs my body like a cape
Yet weighs me down with chains
Pulling me down with weights
As I look in the mirror and say
"I'm okay."
Yet I'm told to find safety, people
Pointing to a doctor, whose pills look
Like little monsters about to take
Away the one demon that never left
Depression is my friend
The friend, that I battle daily
The friend were warned at a young age not to listen to
The friend, I pretend not to talk too
When I'm all alone with nothing to do
The friend who cries with me,
The demon who knows how to hurt me
It was there since it started, the fear
Is overwhelming, the attachment is sickening
Yet, I trail down the road of life
Ankles bruised from shackles
Robbed of happiness daily
Forced into mindless thoughts of
False reality, because it's meant to hurt me
Yet I look in the mirror
one more time, fake a smile
That never reached my eyes
And giggle a laugh, that never hits
My cheeks
Hold my breath, look at the fog
Surrounding my body and sigh
"I will survive"
This is my life, with depression
Written by: Teha Brown aka WILTEDROSE213
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HeartFelt Poetry| 18+
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