I fear it
Change
The word makes my skin crawl
My throat close, my lungs hurt
My breathing turns into a frenzy
As I panic
About the change I must face
Knowing tomorrow I'll wake up
Somewhere different, that
I won't get to see what I'm use to
The anxiety I feel daily
With excitement confuses me
I don't want to leave
Yet I do
I don't want change
Yet it happening anyway
I'm scared that change might
Ruin me, ruin what I've became
Ruin the love that I hold tightly
viciously rip apart everything
I've ever known and shape it
Into something I've never seen
I'm scared of loosing people
Watching so many leave
Watching them hate me for
Being the same, for struggling
Watching them ignore me
Forget me, ditch me
Ridicule me
Then congratulate me
While I'm fearing my life
Fearing the changes
Fearing the change in current
Watching things happen
That never happened before
It's new, it's tiring
Striping my childhood walls
From memories that kept me sane
Packing away my belongings
In a place that wasn't enough
Yet still my home
Leaving my mother
My siblings
My friends
Everyone that I cling to
Just to change into somebody
Better? Different? Acceptable?
I'm not sure yet
I'm not sure if I'm ready
Yet I'm still packing
Still striping myself bare
Destroying my existing
That once thrived in this house
The times I screamed to the rooftops
Angry at the world
The times I wished it ended, as I closed my eyes to the night sky
Over and over again watching
People enter and leave
The shining gold of good memories
I can never repeat
The laughs and the tears
Of every single moment
Spent with the people I loved
That I must leave because
That is how life is
We grow up and then we move on
We create our own lives
With new people
Grow older, make family
Have children, or don't
We have jobs, we take pictures
Just for it to be buried away
In the future
Just another memory
In a book, yet we keep fighting to
Prove, and fear the change
That must happen for new
Trees to grow.
I'm scared, change is terrifying
I'm scared of the things I might see
Might do, might learn, might try
But at the same time
It's exhilarating knowing
That I'll be able to capture things
I never dreamed of seeing
I'm scared
But that's okay
One day in the future
I'll be okay.
Hope You guys like it, haven't wrote a poem in a while.
Love you my kitties, let's home the changes I'm expirencing are for the best.
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