TRIGGER WARNING
I shouldn't have to suck it up
Tell myself its just noise
Because the worker said
All my escuse weren't valid
I shouldn't be rendered silent
When the vice principle kicks
Me out of school
Because I wasn't trying
Yet even when I tell them
I did
Even when I cry on my knees
Begging them to see my words
When my brain is suffocating
Cause to me these are problems
Real problems I cant ignore
When my eyes are sore
And my tears are no more
When the world asks for
Proof of my achieviements
Yet to getting up in the morning
Without crying at my reflection
Is a proud moment to me
But to society is nothing,
Your self centered
Your a liar
Your an attention seeker
Cause if you post photos
Everyday there is no way
You can be depressed
If you show attention on
The internet you have to right
To be afraid of society.
Yet I am
I watched a video the other day
It was about anxiety
At some point my lungs couldn't
Function
Because Anxiety was an
"Exaugerated Emotion"
Yet I battled it for 8 years
Livid battles in my head
Moments of complete weakness
As I lie in my bed
Because I couldn't find the
Strength to get up and face the
World
But they were just escuses
Yet even when I lie and say I'm
Fine
Society tells me I shouldn't be
Silent
That I should scream from the
Rooftops and tell the world
My fears.
Yet Anxiety is an Exaurated emotion.
But when nights become to cold
And there is not a single piece
Of warmth that can get me through
The thoughts tear my mind apart
I was told that It would fade
That one day I'd be okay.
Even when I stand in the shower
At 3 am letting the water fall over my
Head and that distant need to
Grab my only friend comes over me
Even when the need to visit the one
Thing I have been a year clean
From comes hauntjng through
My finger tips.
That sad thought of reality
Hits me in the throat
They aren't right.
Fuck you all.
Anxiety isn't make belief
I know this, the voices in my head
Trying to cover up the lions den
Wont allow the robots in
I AM trying
that should be enough.
Being able to get out of bed
Without feeling insecure
Should be given a fucking award
Going to school even though
The walls feel like a cage
And nobody sees your
Internal struggle
Should be a fucking award
But knowing that your okay,
That you made it another day
Is the biggest award of all.
Written By: Teha Brown aka WILTEDROSE213
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