HeartFelt Poetry| 18+

Poem #31|My Fear Of Water

I have this fear, fear of swimming
The fear is like knives tracing down
My skin, every time I jump in
Tingling of emotion dripping from
My sweaty figure

I felt what it's like to drown
Deep inside the clear blue water
Filled with chlorine, stinging the back
Of my throat even though I didn't
Black out

I felt the fear, of loosing control
That moment when your limbs
Go numb.
That last second of fight, maybe
You get saved? Maybe you save
Yourself

So close to going under, loosing
Myself in a dark haze while
My lungs filled up with water
Fear overwhelms me Everytime
I touch the beautiful array of
Colors shining at me

I love the water, it calls my name
Yet my skin drips with sweat
Painful anticipation, as I wait
For my last breath, or for my
Feet to stop touching the waters edge

I cannot swim, I use too though
I remember gliding through the water
Free as a dolphin in the ocean until
The water dragged me under,
Robbing me of that freedom

Yet I was only in a pool,
Laugh if you must
The clear sparkle of chlorine
Made me afraid of the sea
Cause I couldn't keep swimming
When I should have

Now the feeling follows me
Through anxiety, dripping
Down my skull and down my face
Driving me insane, as I look for
The stares I cannot handle

I fear the idea of floating
Because I've felt like in drowning
My body won't allow me
To feel the vast amounts of water
Cause it knows, I shall suffer

The noise, explodes my ears
I feel lost and broken inside an abyss
Staring at the water, my old friend
Trapped in a cage of fear untouched
Forced to keep me under the water

Remmebering the feeling of drowning
The feeling of my lungs filling with water
The memory of almost loosing my life
His eyes, uncaring when I almost died
The way nobody noticed I almost went
Under and never came out

I feel that every day, secluded from the rest
If I truly did drown that day
If I would've went deep underwater
Continued to allow the water drag me under
Would anybody have remembered

No, but I'm here
Sharing my words to everyone
Living the life I almost lost
because nobody ever noticed
The fight I had in the water.

Written By: Teha Brown aka WILTEDROSE213