HeartFelt Poetry| 18+

POEM #42| Fear, Learning, Life

TRIGGER WARNING

Work hard or You fall hard
Try hard or You Die hard
Live life or End it all
Be strong or be weak
Causing being both means be incomplete

Do as your told or fold
Do it your way and loose control
Life is hard, no it's too easy
I stand on a hill, waves to the ceiling
Posionous rocks lay waste to my soul

Somebody told me it was easy
To stand tall and take it hard
Rocks hitting my chest like bowling balls
Trying not to crumble over like pins
On an alley, direct lines showing
Where to hit the vital points
To drive me insane

Somebody told me to push
To keep fighting, that in the end
Everything is worth the risk
Of loosing your shit, your body might
Just might quit
Before you make it to the finish

I learned that those who do better
Frown on those who do less
I learned that those who have done less
And get better frown on those still trying
Cause god forbid if THEY made it and
YOU HAVEN'T, your not worth it

Cause now a days you give up true friends
For fake friends who carry drama
Cause life isn't about who can cry
On your shoulder
Cause asking for favours comes with dollar signs

Marriage is a rock to your ankle
Relationships aren't even real
Cause I'm watching children pretend like they know what love is
While screaming at their mother over a toy she couldn't pay for

I'm stressing my soul for my future
As I watch society crumble like sand
It's like being in the desert, every drink
I take leaves a posionous taste in my mouth
I fear having children, I fear giving birth
I fear my children fearing the same things I do

I'm scared of the way we bring each other down
I watch how those who have riches frown on those who use the system
I cry at the moms who really wanted kids but get yelled at for not working

I see kids acting like adults
Teenage girls wearing bras on camera
Little girls going missing and boys acting like they thugs
I see mother's loosing hope, and fathers loosing titles

I see posts about cheating being bad, and people not even trying
I see posts about girls complaining they never had a man who loved them
Yet decided to dump the man who would pave a road for them

Ive seem girls with their boobs on the ground walking them
While they complain about lack of respect
While sending their ex unwanted boob pics

I see boys posting send on dick picks,
Nice words stopped existing
The GOOD guys and men have gone into hybernation
As we watch marriage become a topic unwanted, like touching a burning fire

I learned that the people who understand aren't always the ones
Who have been there forever
I've learned you loose some and gain others
I learned that not everybody loves you, sometimes they lie

I realized one day I'm going to be somewhere and so will the people who pretended to care
I realized one day they are going to beg to be forgiven
And I'm going to walk away

I realized it doesn't matter if your man or women is successful or poor
People still put them down, because in this world everything has to be perfect
Instead of work, cause love is a beautiful piece of work

Ive learns that the words I say
Everyone hates to hear them
I opened my eyes one day and
Decided to speak them

Cause maybe I'm hated but
My voice is fucking heard
I'm not hiding from anybody
You know who I am
You know what I've done
You know what my mindset is

So either walk in or go home
Cause I'm in control
I've learned, I know and I see
I'm scared and I'm fighting
I'm learning and Im trying

I'm not perfect, I'm far from that
I'm fat, chubby and insecure
I have pain and problems glore
I might be sick? I might need a doctor
Yet I don't hide that

I don't hide being my fake mask
And pretend I'm okay
When I'm not, I'm fighting life
That should be okay
I should be able to yell and voice
My opinions out into the world

Cause if you dont like it
Or maybe it's too much information
Than hop out of my life darling
Cause I'm a bad as bitch
With a fucked up life

Trying to make it
Without dying before
I get there.

Written by: Teha Brown aka WILTEDROSE213

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