TRIGGER WARNING
Nobody truly understands
My battles, the ones I try
Too win, closing off the monsters
Living within
I am suicidal
But I don't want to die
But the thoughts plague me
And there's no where to hide
Did you hear me?
I DON'T want to die
You're so quick to assume
That I hate my life
But in reality I just can't
Figure out how to fit in
My brain is like a clock
Batteries never running out
Ticking away all ours of the
Night, the sound driving me
Insane, but I can't turn it off
Even when my eyes are so heavy
And I feel like I might collapse
My brain keeps going
Trying to win
But you don't see my struggle
Nobody does
They choose to live their life
Ignoring the people around them
Like a shadow, you know its there
But you pay it no mind
Have you ever asked how it
Feels late at night, while you
Stare at the ceiling and suddenly
The feeling haunts you crawling
Up your skin, line vines finding
A new place to grow
It's terrifying as you watch
The darkness surround you
Even the glare from the tv
Doesn't help you
My anxiety is like
Smoking choking me
From a fire nobody egnighted
Removing the oxygen from
My body, as my thoughts
Overrule my mind for second
My vision blurry
My boyfriend telling me
To breath, to calm down
That i'm okay and we'll get
Through this
That I won't wake up
Terrified because the dreams
I have aren't sugarland anymore
But ruled by monsters I face
In real life
That one day I'll be free
Have the apartment I always dreamed
The dreams that I voiced out
In words but everyone told me
Were hopless
I know its hopeless
For 18 year i never thought
I'd make it this far
Every birthday was a mark
I never cared for
So when you tell me
My path is empty
That I'm going nowhere in
Life
Your just adding to my struggles
I'm trying to damn well survive
Because midnight showers
Crying in a bath tub surrounded
By the demons repeating the
Cruel words you said until
I start crying, and screaming
"Shut UP! i know"
I believe them
I believe you
I know I'm a lost cause
I fear you.
My anxiety is who I am
If I loose the only thing
Thats helped me live
The creativity to the words I speak
The part of me that grew older
Than the age on my birth certificate
Maybe you'll listen
Or maybe you'll just continue
Being a robot to a society
That outcasts the different
Puts down the anxious
And kills of the depressed
Be strong or be dead
That's the life we live in
Written by: Teha Brown aka WILTEDROSE213
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