Soulful Words From A Broken Spirit

Lose A Friend

We laugh and we joke share laughter for hours,
But how do I know it's real,
How do I guage the feelings that I harbor deep within,
That manifest only when you're around

They render me hopeless in your focus,
Wishing that you'd be mine,
Whether as a friend or otherwise I value your time,
But don't know how to express that

Afraid of being let down or ruining what we share,
Though I wanna breathe your air,
I'll bottle up these emotions and throw them in the sea,
Along with half of me as I watch it drift away

For that's the only thing I know that'll make you stay,
Comfortable in your position while I break down by your side,
Swallowing my pride uncertain of what to do,
Then I get a glimpse of you and there's butterflies,

Fluttering in my stomach amazed and astonished,
But what do I do,
Do I jump off of the ledge and hope I land in your arms,
Reenacting dreams to a reality as you give me your heart,

Or do I keep things cordial and continue to live this lie,
Where eventually I'll die from holding so much in,
I just wanna explode and tell you how I feel,
But I don't wanna lose a friend.