Brighter days [jalex]

The future

That night me and Jack basically pass out as soon as we get home and the next morning when I'm still slightly drunk talk about my feelings. I tell him about all my fears of relationship and how I don't know how to react to love. I explained to Jack about how I grew up thinking I couldn't love another man but sleeping with one was fine and how he scared me off. I wasn't ready to accept my true feelings I just knew at the time I liked him.

"Do you promise to talk to me about this stuff in the future?" Jack asked.

"Sure."

"Pinky promise." Jack held out his little finger, I rolled my eyes but did it anyway, "Kellin was trying to claim you cheating was his fault."

"That's a lie." I say, "Kellin told me to stop and pushed me off of him. It was only when he asked if I was ruining our relationship on purpose and I carried on he had anything to do with it. He was just there if it was someone else I would have probably came onto them to."

"Was you really trying to purposely fuck it up?"

"Yeah." I admit, "I was drunk and scared so I did what I did when I used to attempt relationships."

"Don't do it again." Was all Jack said, "Because I won't be giving you another chance."

"I don't deserve this one."

"Lets just start clean."

I look into Jacks eyes as we lay on the kitchen floor. I don't know why we decided on this place for an important conversation but it worked. My head on the cold floor inches away from Jacks was perfect.

"I don't want to think about the future." I think out loud, "That scares me. I want to be with you right this second but don't force me to talk about long term. If I want you now I'll probably want you in a year but I don't want to think about it."

"So I can't tell you I want to be the father of your adopted children." Jack laughed.

"Don't want kids." I tell him, "Incase I'm a bad parent like mine where."

"You're going to be a great parent if you decide you want kids." Jack said, I'm thankful Jack said if you decide instead of if we decide.

"I probably won't change my mind."

"That's fine then."

"So are you my boyfriend again?" I ask.

"How about you ask me to be and see." Jack smiled chewing on a sweet.

"Would you do me the honour of exclusively fucking me until we either break up or die?" I joke, "But seriously please be my boyfriend."

"You're impossible." Jack rolled his eyes trying to pretend he was actually mad but he had a huge smile on his face and I could tell that he was trying not to laugh, "But yes Alex. I would love to be your boyfriend and exclusively fuck you until we die or break up. Not that I want us to break up."

"Neither do I."

Authors note

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