Little Mix One Shots

Hero (Jerrie)

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"I know you miss him babe, but you can't be sad forever, you have to move forward." My mam said, as my tears fell again at a memory of Adam.
"You don't understand mam, I loved him, how could he just leave?" I shouted back, sinking to my knees with the pain.
"He was unhappy Jade, it happens somethimes, you have to learn to live with his decission, you can't mope about him forever." Mam said harshly, leaving the room. It didn't matter if she was telling the truth it still hurt.
"I'm going to Nana's I might stay over." I told them about half an hour later, a backpack on my back, dried tears on my cheeks.
I didn't wait for a response, just left, needing the one person who understood my pain. As I walked I desolved into tears again, looking at my beautiful town, remembering all of the times I spent with him. "why did you have to leave Adam it was going so well." I sighed looking up to the sky as a raindrop fell onto my nose. My tears mingled with the water, washing away some of the pain, leaving me numb, as I reached my Nana's house.
"Oh Jade babe, come in, get warm, it torrential out there." My nana said, the minute my knuckles rasped the door, almost as if she had been waiting for me.
"Hi nana," I hiccupped, pealing my coat off for her to hang, slipping my shoes off too.
"Hi my angel, how are you?" She asked, leading me into the kitchen.
"Not great nan, I can't get my head around it really, everythning reminds me of him and Mam and Dad don't undertand." I explained, filling the kettle up for her.
"It's gonna hurt for a while Babe, you love him. And in regards to Mam and Dad, they just don't want to see you hurt love, they want to take all of your pain away." Nan told me, chucking two tea bags into the mugs.
"I'm just struggling to understand his decission, I don't get why he had to go, I thought our love was strong enough." I sighed, trying not to cry again.
"oh Jade, come here" she said, opening here arms, as my tears began to fall again, "sometimes this word is a horrible place and nothing can feel right and no matter how much love is around you, you can't seem to pull yourself from this unhappy place and the pain gets too much and sometimes people choose to leave and nothing you can do can fix them. I think that's what he went through hun, no amount of love you could give him could've made him feel any better but I bet you brightened his world up anyway." She said, rubbing my back as I sobbed at her words,hoping everything she was saying was true and he really did love me.
"I miss him" I whispered, looking up at the ceiling to stop my tears.
"I miss him too, but he's in a better place now right?" she reminded me, continuing to make the cuppa.
"yup, with his dad " I said, haning her the milk, grabbing a tisue to dry my face.
"exactly, now what do you want for your tea?" she asked, passing me the warm mug, leading me to the lounge.
"can we have a chippy?" I said quietly, feeling like Adam's favourite tea.
"Of course, I'll see if Sarah can drop us one off so we don't hve to go out in this horrible weather." Nana said, picking her mobile phone up, texting my cousin.
My nana was my best friend and I was so thankful I still had her to help me heal.
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"What do you mean I can't go to my own boyfriend's funeral?" I screamed at my mam, clutching the information in my hand.
"Dad and I can't get the day off and you can't go on your own so you can't go" she said, chopping carrots for our tea.
"I can't believe you guys, they're burrying my boyfriend of 2 years, someone who you said was as good as your own son and you can't even go" I shouted, in complete disbelief.
"I'll not hear any more of this Jade Amelia, you will not go. Now go and cool off and come and speak to me when you're ready to talk like an adult" she said too calmly, causing me to storm off into my room, grabbing the house phone on the way round.
"Hi nana" I said, as soon as the phone connected.
"Hi Jade everything okay, you sound angry?" Nana asked me, as I flopped onto the bed.
"No, Mam and Dad won't let me go to Adam's funeral" I explained, cuddling the teddy he had got me.
"Why Jadey?" She questioned, sounding shocked.
"They say they can't get the time off and I can't go on my own but I don't believe them" I told her, burrying my face in the bear after.
"I'll talk to them and see what I can sort Jade, don't worry about it, I'll make sure you can go okay, now do you think mam'll mind if I come over?" She said, with a hint of cheekyness in her voice.
"No, remember to text her to tell her though" I said, knowing mam would appreciate it.
"I will, see you soon then" Nana said a smile present in her voice.
"See ya" I said before hanging up.
After that I just lay there facing the ceiling holding Adam's teddy, smelling the fading strawberry scent. I rolled over to face the picture my nan had printed for me of Adam and I at her birthday party. As I did so I lent on the hand of the teddy and suddenly Adam's kind voice filled my room.
"Hi baby, happy 16th birthday, I love you"
"Love you too" I hiccupped, my tears falling thick and fast now, "I know you were hurting but I loved you, why did you have to go?"
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"Ready to go Jade?" My Nana asked, popping her head around the door.
"Yeah, you don't think the dress is too much?" I whispered, glancing at myself in the mirror.
"No, I think you look lovely and Adam would think you looked beautiful. It's perfect." She said, coming to stand behind me in the mirror.
"Okay, I'm ready I think, I just need to grab the picture frame and the card, then I'm ready to go." I told her, turning to grab the stuff.
"Got it!" She said, opening her bag, showing me the items.
"Okay then, let's go." I sighed, linking my arm with her's, as we walked down the stairs.
Today was the day of the funeral and my Nana was going with me. A couple of our friends would be there but other than that it would be mostly his family who I had met but wasn't comfortable being on my own with them. So my hero was  coming with me.
"Jade it's lovely to have you here" Sandra smiled, giving me a hug, as soon as Nana and I stepped out of the taxi at the church.
"Thanks for having me Sandra, how have you been?" I asked her, seeing how much she had aged since losing her eldest son.
"As good as you can be I guess, you must have been much the same." She said, wrapping her arm around my side, leading me closer to the church.
"Yeah, it's been difficult, but I'm coping, just hoping for a bit of closure today really" I said to her, sniffling a little, due to the cold December air.
"Me too, Charlie's been asking after you but I didn't want to burden you, he's over there with his cousins, if you want to see him." Sandra explained, pointing to  Adam's little brother.
"You should have called, it would've been fine honestly," I told her, looking over at the little boy who was laughing away, which I must admit was a weird thing to see at a funeral.
"Jade!" He shouted, running up and hugging me.
"Hi Charlie-Warlie" I replied, catching him as he jumped.
"I missed you!" He said, wrapping his arms around my neck.
"I missed you too Char," I said, holding him tightly, feeling a little sad that Adam wasn't there.
"If I could have your attention please" Adam's grandad said, raising his hand up, giving it a wave, "the ceremony will begin soon, there will be a casket viewing if you wish now, in the vestry, if not you're welcome to come and sit in the warmth of the church." He said, smiling, opening the church doors.
I looked to my Nana, who nodded and said "hey Charlie, I bet if you look in my bag we could find a couple of sweets." Taking his hand, walking him over to a bench, passing me my stuff in the process.
Taking a deep breath, I started walking, my black pumps carefully treading the uneven path, up to the church.
"Jade" Mitch, his friend said, jogging up beside me.
"Hi Mitch," I said sighing, fiddling with my dress.
"You holding up?" He asked, laying his hand on the small of my back, as we entered the church.
"Just about" I told him with a muted chuckle.
"Same, you haven't been to school since right?" He asked, as we followed the crowd.
"No it's a bit much at the moment but I've been doing work so I'm not behind. I'm going to be slowly getting back to it, it just hit me quite hard." I explained, my breathing increasing slightly as we moved closer to the vestry.
"I understand, well I'm not going to the viewing so I'll see you after" he said, patting my shoulder before leaving to sit next to a couple of Adam's friends. I continued into the vestry where an ornate casket sat on a clothed table. Gripping the picture frame I stepped into the queue behind his aunt who was sobbing. I looked down at the picture in the tiny heart frame until it was my turn.
Slowly looking up I took in his form. He didn't look like my Adam. I began to cry as the enormity of what had happened hit me. Carefully, I stood on my tip toes and, with shaking a hand, laid our picture on the pocket of his jacket. "I love you Adam, more than anything else babe. I hope you're happy and safe up there" I whispered, kissing his forehead before fixing his hair to how it should be, wiping my tear of mine from his face.
I left the room pretty swiftly, finding my nana waiting with open arms by the vestry. "You're doing so well Jade, so so well" she cooed, cradling my head gently as I cried into her chest. She really was my guardian Angel and my hero.
***
"Hi Miss Morellie, I was wondering if I could have a word with Miss Thirlwall?" My head of year said sombrely, looking at me. I slowly stood up, this had become a regular thing.
"Do I need my bag Miss?" I asked her, stood by the table.
"If you could Jade" she said with a polite smile, "Hi Jade, come to my office love," she said, as I left the room, leading me down the corridor, "take a seat Jade" she told me, waving her hand at the the empty seat. "I'm afraid it's not our usual conversation today Jade. Your mum just rang me and told me that your nana has been taken ill, your brother is on his way to pick you up, I'm so sorry Jade, especially as things were beginning to look better for you" she explained, taking my hand, as I began to cry. She handed me a tissue and patted my shoulder.
"She's my hero" I told her, my eyes stinging.
"I know hun, I'm so so sorry that this has happened, how were you feeling today?" She asked me, handing me another tissue.
"I didn't cry when I woke up, I'm meant to be taking Charlie out to get ice cream this weekend so I was looking forward to it but if N-nana is in t-the h-hospital i-it might not happen" I said, wiping my eyes.
"I'm sorry Jade, it's really rotten, do you want to walk over the office, Karl will be here soon" she asked me, opening one of her drawers.
"I guess, I'm not sure I can stand up though, I'm all shakey" I said to her, trying to restore my breathing.
"It's totaly normal Jade, would you like a biscuit, to get your energy up?" she offered, holding out the tin that she had taken from the drawer.
"Yes please," I said, reaching my hand out, taking a biscuit, "Thanks Miss, I don't know what I would have done without you" I tell her sincerely, she really had helped me over the last month, especially right after I had found Adam, she had come to the house and sat with me for hours, even when my mam arrived and my nan, she stayed and helped me through it all.
"Its my job Jade, I will always be here if you need help." she said, patting my arm, "now, shall we go over because I'm sure Karl will be there by now." she suggested, to which I nodded, shakily standing up, going to grab my bag. However before I coud she grabbed it, with a smile and led me out of the room and to reception where a teary eyed Karl was waiting, some flours in his hand.
***
My hero went to heaven the same evening she was rushed to hospital. The effects of 4 strokes shutting her organs down. The pain I felt in that moment was nothing I have ever experienced before. Everyday I found myself not only mourning Adam but her as well, holding them both close to my heart.
3 years later and I still think about them everyday.
I now go to the university of Newcastle and study a BA in  fine art and secondary teaching. I was scrolling though my contacts, tring to find the number of my therapist when I stumbled across a number; Hero❤ feeling a surge of upset, I clicked on the contact and began typing, my heart guiding my fingers across the screen until a paragraph had been typed.