Little Mix One Shots

Darkness pt 1 (Jerrie)

⚠contains strong language and delicate topics such as self harm, depression and lack of self worth. I am not in anyway glorifying mental health problems, they are serious things that need to be talked openly about in order for our society to combat them.
On with the story ...

Skinny
Loner
Bitch
Homewrecker
Marriage breaker
Perrie doesn't love you
Die bitch
Little mix would be better without you
Slut
"Ahh get out me head" I shouted into the empty apartment. Ever since I posted a picture of Perrie and I kissing all I had got was hateful comment after hateful comment. They were beginning to engrain in the deepest part of my brain. Manifesting in my thoughts. Poisoning what little peace I had. And basically ruining my life.
It was extra effort to do anything. Waking up was difficult, eating was even harder.
Perrie, Leigh and Jesy were out the house doing various things. And I felt lonely.
'You did it to yourself' my mind sneered, reminding me that I felt lonely because I hadn't gone out with Perrie to the supermarket. Because I hadn't taken Leigh's offer of coffee. Because I had shouted at Jesy when she suggested I came to the park with her and George.
I turned to the next best thing, in my opinion, to fill the void and lack of human contact, Instagram. Yes, I know what you're thinking, 'surely Instagram would be the last place I want to go when it was the place that set off my most recent bout of unhappiness'. But you'd be wrong, seeing the fan's edits help, hearing their stories makes me feel something other than lonely. So I clicked on the orange, purple and pink smeared icon and tried to relax ignoring the incessant chitter-chatter in the back of my mind.

Perrie
Something is wrong. Something is very wrong. I can feel it in the base my stomach, spreading outwards into my chest. Into my brain that is beginning to whire, as I walk around Tescos not really focusing enough to buy the ingredients for the lasagne I so very wanted to make for Jade.
Jade.
Jade.
Jade.
Jade is the something wrong. I can feel it. She's been off for days.
A possible relapse? Definitely.
'Call her' my mind shouted, directing my hand to the source of weight in my left pocket.
'Dial her number' it directs, my fingers punching in the numbers, my feet stopped in the meat isle, brain like substances surrounding me as my subconscious lifted the phone to my ear.
Jade.
Ring.
Jade.
Ring.
Jade.
Ring.
"Your call can't be ..." a voice told me, my ears ringing with the dial tone.
'Check with Jesy' brain continued, entering the numbers for Jesy in, the phone connecting instantly, the oldest member's voice flowing into my ears.
"J-Jes" I stuttered to her, worry coursing through my veins next to 30 trillion red blood cells.
"What's wrong Pez, everything okay?" She asked, instantly concerned.
"Have you heard from Jay, I can't get hold of her and I'm worried something's happened." I said as fast as I could, making my way to the tills with what was not even half a shop.
"No I haven't sorry, what makes you think that?" She said calm as ever.
"I can just feel it, I think she's relapsing Jes, I'm so worried" I panicked, haphazardly loading things onto the convayerbelt, most definitely looking like a mad person.
"Okay, calm down, are you in Tesco still?" She asked me, as though she couldn't hear the beeps of the scanners or the chucking of items onto the belt.
"Yep, I can't reach her Jes, what if, what if it's too late?" I said frantically, packing the shopping into a bag, mixing fabric conditioner with bread and cans with meat.
"Calm down Perrie, buy the stuff and drive home the speed limit, I'll be home with George as soon as I can, I'll call Leigh to see if she's heard anything, stay calm okay" she reassured me, I could hear her lifting George out of a swing.
"Okay, bye Jes" I said, barely keeping it together, as I paid for the stuff and sprinted out of the shop, leaving the trolley by the till.
I raced to the car, throwing the stuff into the back, disregarding the fact that it had spilled everywhere.
Putting the car in gear I drove out of the car park, tears falling from the corner of my eye, carving a path down my face, falling from my chin onto my shirt leaving a dotted pattern of dark and light as I reached a set of lights that were on red.
"I'm coming baby, please be okay Jadey, please I need you Jade" I said, launching off as soon as the light turned green.
10 minutes it would take me. 10 minutes to get to Jade. 10 minutes to find out if the love of my life is okay. Is safe.
My tyres screeched to a halt at our house, turning the engine off as quick as I could I charged up to the front of my house attacking the lock with 3 keys before I arrived at the one that would let me in.
"Jade" I called out, completely out of breath, pearlecent drops still gathering in the caruncle of both of my eyes. Coating my eyelashes. Falling at an unnecessary rate.
"Baby, where are you?" I shouted, frantically searching for her down stairs.
"Jade. Jade. Come on baby where are you?" I said, taking the stairs two at a time, the worry coating my throat making it difficult to breathe.
"Jade" I croaked seeing her curled in the corner of our bathroom, her face resembling mine. "Jadey can you hear me? Baba?" I said, tapping her face, stepping over fragments of mirror to reach her.
"Perrie?" She asked, looking up, her blood stained hand grabbing onto my arm.
"Baby, I'm here it's okay, I'm here, come on" I said, picking her up and carrying her into our room, blood pouring from her wrists onto my shirt.
"Perrie" she repeated hysterically, burrying her face into my chest.
I Iaid her down and grabbed her wrists, trying to stem the flow of blood, staring into her eyes, my heart breaking at the sight in front of me.
"I'm sorry" she whispered, trying to wriggle out of my grasp.
"Stay still Jade, I need to stop them bleeding," I said through gritted teeth, as I grabbed a blanket and placed it on the slices.
"I'm tired Perrie" she said, her eyes beginning to drift shut.
"Oh no you don't, don't close those eyes Jadey, don't you dare close those eyes." I said, firmly, trying to reach for my phone.
"But I'm tired, I want to see granda" she continued, her eyes shutting more and more with every second.
"You can't see him yet, let's talk Jade, when's your birthday baba?" I asked, hoping I could keep her alert as I called 999.
"December 26th 1992" Jade said, her eyes opening slightly more.
"And who am I?" I continued, and upon hearing the voice of the operator I said, "ambulance immediately"
"You're my girlfriend, Perrie" Jade muttered, the colour beginning to drain from her face more and more. A ghostly presence exiting her normal glowy skin.
"Yes I am," I said, then focused on what the ambulance person said, "my girlfriend slit her wrists I'm trying to stem the flow but they're deep" I explained.
"I'm sorry Pez, it was the voices" Jade said, lifting her head up to kiss my lips.
"It's okay, don't think about that, what's your favourite food?" I quizzed, glancing at the blanket which was covered in sticky blood.
"Biscuits" she said slowly beginning to close her eyes again.
"Stay with me Jay," I said, "please can you hurry up she's losing consciousness." I said to the phone, still applying pressure to the blanket.
"I love you" she whispered, completely closing her eyes. The same moment I heard Jesy's voice calling through the house.
"Up here Jes, come on Jadey stay with me, it's not your time to go yet, come on Jay" I said, nudging her side with my knee.
"Did you ... oh my god, have you called an ambulance?" Jesy asked me, running up next to me.
"Yep," I said nudging the phone with my elbow, Jesy instantly picked it up and started talking to the ambulance person. I just stared at my world, willing her to wake up, knowing she was far away. "I'm not ready to lose you Jade"

Part 2 will be coming soon, please feel free to request.
Just want to let you know of you ever need a chat, I'm happy to talk!! You're all fab and I love you xx