Little Mix One Shots

Dear You (Jerrie friendship)

I recommend playing the video as you read because it is based off the song very heavily. The words in italics are the lyrics to the song xx
"Jade, will you look through this box and make sure you want to keep it all?" My Mam asked me, bringing me in a box from the attic. I instantly recognised it, my box full of school friend stuff.
"Yeah sure." I told her, taking it from her and placing it on the floor. We were having a massive clearout so we were going through all of the boxes I had put in the attic when I attemped to go to uni.
Opening it up nostalgia hit me. I began pulling things out smiling at the memories that came with them. One thing however, evoked powerfull memories of a person.
Perrie.
I had met Perrie in school when I was 11. We had been sat on the same table and just became friends by talking to eachother. It was weird when I met Perrie, I'd always felt like she'd known me.
I finished sorting the box and put it back in the attic, sitting down attempting to watch some tv. But I couldn't shake a particular thought.
Perrie.
We lost touch after she went to a different college. It was just too hard to keep in contact with people. Especially with all of the mental health promblems I had. I closed myself off from the world.
So I decided to write a letter.

Dear you,
I hope you don't mind me writing, 'cause it's been some time since we last spoke,
I hope you're doing more than fine, damn all that time I don't know where it goes,
Man I bet there's been some change and in my brain you've been doing so well,
I know It's important, I know I haven't called but, tell me all there is to tell

Sending it to the last adress I had her living in.
I waited weeks for a reply knowing, logically, it wouldn't ever come. But there was somthing weird about writing to her, almost like I have an outlet and an escape when I write to her. So I carried on writing to her.

Dear you,
It looks like you must have moved house, the last address I got for you was time ago now,
You're probably in Spain or the states no doubt, in school I always knew that it was you who'd get out,
I heard you dumped Christeen but that was probably what, 2003,
I bet you've got a super hot wife or three, you were always such a player when we were sixteen,
I hope our paths cross sometime, I can't seem to find your profile online,
Drop me a call, any day or night is fine because I'd love to see your face after such a long time

A few days later I had a really dark day, or whole week really. It began to get too much for me. Work was getting on top of me. So much shit was happening in my life and I couldn't deal with anymore. But then I tought of her and I wrote again.

Dear you,
Me again, obviously it's a letter, it's weird writing these to you makes me feel better,
'Cause sometimes when it's dark or it's really bad weather, I feel like I might just feel down forever,
Last night I really felt that might have been it, like I just couldn't deal with any more shit,
I wanted to disappear and if I think that I did, it would be at least a week before it went noticed,
I wanna go back, back to when we were kids, when we didn't know pain could feel like this,
When we didn't know hurt and we didn't know risk but we all grew up and I guess that's it,

Then somthing crossed my mind after that horible week. Why didn't I just try the old landline that I knew the numbers for off by heart, with all of the late night calls and long friendship chats? So thats what I did ...
I got throught to her prents and well...

Dear you,
It's strange how quickly we can lose sight, I called your old landline late last night,
I remembered those numbers since '99, anyway suppose I called because you hadn't replied,
I got through to your parents, they were so surprised, they asked me if I still lived down park drive,
I got the worst feeling when I heard your dad cry, when your mum took the phone and went outside,
Man, she told me how hard you tried, that it didn't work out with your kids and wife,
I nearly dropped the phone and had tears in my eyes, when she said, you took your own life last July.

My heart shattered at that.
So...
Dear Perrie
I always felt like I'd known you,
I never thought you would be lonely,
Now there's nothing else I can do,
This is me reaching out to you.

Just a shot one, I hope you liked it!
Thanks for all of the support
~H xx