Life is never lived without pain or suffering
Of the suicidal thoughts that run through my brain at night
My parents have yet to notice
The fact is that they don't care
They never did and they never will
I stay alive for my friends, father and boyfriend
But not for my mother or step-father
They keep pushing me and my buttons
This time when they pushed me
They pushed me too far
And I fell
Down a path where i can never return from
I might run away from this horrid place I call home
My hopeful soul keeps telling me that there is a way out of this
But the truth is, there wasn't a way out of this mess I call my life
I pray to God to take
My tainted soul
The thought of death
Has never frightened me
I am now down a path
With no one who cares
I'll do it tonight
End my life
By a blade or maybe yet
I'll hang
I'm sure my father and friends will weep
But not the bitch I call a mother
Or the
Dick I call a step-father
I'll miss them dearly
But they won't miss me
My life means nothing to them
They could care less about me
Sometimes I feel as if I am
Being tortured and beaten
For answers and the information
I don't know
My head is pounding as I write this
So many tears have fallen
Being the "great" mom and step dad they are
They took away one of the
Happiest things to me
My books... Were my way of
Losing myself
The way of
Separating myself from society
I will miss most of all the good
Memories I have had
Such a shame leaving without my
First kiss
I will never see the day of my sweet 16
My parents are clueless
About how I feel
They don't know that I've had this thought process many a times
But... I can never go through with the threats or the promises I make
They raise me with their backs to me
Not ever wondering what's going on
They think that I am some pathetic
Little girl
My tears will no longer be shed
On this paper
My soul will be separated from me
I have so many choices to choose
Be reborn into a new, live in the fields of Elysium
I might starve myself
They'll look at me like I'm crazy
But I won't care
I'll starve myself until I am all skin and bones
Not an inch of fat on me
My head is now pounding
It's hard to think
I need to sleep
Maybe all of this was just a nightmare
GOODBYE
Forever...
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Poems!
PoetrySo this is a book of poems that I have written - my old account was XxLovePoetryxX so this is me still. But again a lot of these are from when I was younger (at least the first few) some of them are also from now a days. Warning updates will be a b...
