Stuck (Hayes Grier, Cameron Dallas, Matthew Espinosa, Shawn Mendes, Nash Grier)

Chapter 39

• Marije's POV •

* next morning *

Today was my first volleyball game since I couldn't be able to do the other games. We have to wear are jerseys, it gives us good luck.

So I am wear my volleyball jersey, jeans, and vans to match.

I grab a hoodie, my backpack, phone, money and head out the door. Hayes and I walked to school and it was complete silents, then he spoke,

" So you and Ray ? "

" What, what about me and Ray ? " I say

" I seen you kiss him yesterday.. " He said with a sad tone.

" Oh, Hayes why do you care ? " I say

" Because. " He says

" Because what ? " I say starting to get angry.

" Because I like you, I always have ever since Magcon. " He say

" Hayes " I say

" Marije, I'm sorry " he stops in his tracks.

" Why ? What are you doing ? " I say confused.

" I can't do this anymore " he says and tears start streaming down his face.

" Can't do what anymore Hayes ? " I say in a scared voice.

" I can't be friends with you, because I know that I'll grow feeling for you, my feelings for you grow and grow everyday. I love you Marije. " He says and looks at his feet.

" Hayes, I know you have feelings for Jenna, Maddie, and I. I see the way you look at them, you really love them too, but the only problem is that they will break your heart, but I won't. Hayes I like you and I like Ray. I'm not going to lie to you, I like you both. You probably hate me for saying that, but at least its the truth. Hayes don't think I don't like you, I really do. But I'm scared to start dating again, I kissed Ray yesterday because when we were talking about things and all of are memories I grew feelings for him again. Hayes, don't hate me for this but you never really cared about me until you seen me for the first time in 3 weeks, how much weight I lost, and how dead I looked, right ?

I really can't be in a relationship right now. I just broke up with Shawn 3 weeks ago, he hurt me more than anyone has ever. That kiss that happened between Ray and I, I am not going to lie I wish it never happened. Because I just think about Shawn and cry, I love him a lot but he hurt me, he hurt me really bad. That's why I don't want to date or even get involved with boys, after thinking yesterday. That kiss didn't mean anything to me really, yesterday I felt a spark, but then I seen a picture of Shawn and I hated the fact that, that happened. I wish I never kissed him. I miss Shawn, he was my first kiss. I love him, I always will, but what he did to me hurt me, I don't know maybe I should forget about him and I all but I can't. I think of the times we had together, all the times he was there for me when no one else was, he was the shoulder to cry on when things went wrong. When my dad was at the hospital he came, he stayed over my house for 4 weeks to make sure everything was okay, if we ever needed anything he was always there. He was there for me, I was there for him. I don't know what I did to him for him to cheat. But it's like ever time something good happens to me, something has to ruin it all for me. It sucks. It really does, I regret that kiss, I regret a lot of things, if I could go back in time I would 100%... " tears streaming down my face.

" You thought I never cared about you before ? " Tears also streaming down Hayes' face.

" Yeah, and it's true. You never really did. " I say

" You are wrong " he says

" Your funny, Hayes I know you never really did. You don't need to lie, I want the truth instead of you lying. No one ever really cared about me, only Nash really ever did. " I say