Stuck (Hayes Grier, Cameron Dallas, Matthew Espinosa, Shawn Mendes, Nash Grier)

Chapter 45

Cameron steps in front of me, "haven't you done enough " he said.

He really wants to start.

" Cameron don't even fucking start. " I say.

" Look at him Marije, don't you see what you did to him ? " He said

" CAMERON are you joking, he bet he would get in bed with me before any of you. He threatened Shawn and Ray that if they don't back off MATT was going to end them. Don't you feel bad for me sometimes ? I go though more shit then you ever fucking will in you're damn life. So don't you dare fucking say 'haven't you done enough'. Cameron, I'm 14, I have been though more then you. I lost over 50 pounds, by locking myself up in my damn room for 4 mouths not talking to anyone, I hide from everyone. Oh and before you say anything, did you know I tried killing myself 3 times in that room for the 4 mouths I was in there because of that little dumb ass . " I say pointing to Matt, tears streamed down my face and I walked out of the room.

I go and start packing my things up, I make a plane ride back to North Carolina in 3 hours.

* airport *

I haven't talked to anyone since that whole seen between Cameron and I, my dad took me to the airport. I texted him when he wanted me to answer something. I hop onto the plane, 10 minutes later it takes off.

* home *

I get home and unpack everything, I lock my the doors and go to my room. I lock myself into my room, everyone was going to be back in 3 weeks.

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3 weeks later

I lost a lot of weight again, everyone was going to come to my house after they got back. I went back into depression for the 3rd time, I was stressed. I tried again, but it didn't work. I haven't talked to anyone, texted no one. Nothing. I shut the world out. All I did was blast my music.

I began writing music again, but sad songs really, just about everything that has been going on. I wrote into my journal again.....

Hey again, well where to start. A lot has happened again. We took a trip to Hawaii with everyone, it was only two days and I came back home. Everything happened to fast, I messed Matt up. I wanted to beat him to death but everyone got me off before I could. You are probably wondering why, well Shawn told me everything, I forgave him. He wasn't lying when he said he didn't want to cheat on me, Matt forced him too. I listen to him, I had a dream the first night there, it was Shawn and me talking, in the dream he was explaining everything, what happened and why he cheated. I woke up and walked to his room and pushed though Matt who opened the door, I run to Shawn and smash my lips into his. I missed him. I knew I was doing the right thing. Everyone that was in the room was mad, but I didn't care. I tell Shawn about how I feel and that I believed him, then he told me the secret. He told me how Matt forced him to brake up with me, that Matt was telling all the boys he could get in bed with me before any of the boys could. That's what pissed me off, so I walk over to him and punch him.

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I turn to Matt and walk up to him, I punch him right in the face. He fell right to the ground, " how fucking dare you Matt, THAT'S BULLSHIT. IM SO FUCKIN DONE WITH YOU, YOU RUIN EVERYTHING FOR ME, NEVER I MEAN NEVER FUCKING TALK TO ME AGAIN, I FUCKIN HATE YOU " I say tears streaming down my face.

I get on top of him and start slapping and punching him in the face, " I *smack HATE YOU "

" YOU RUIN MY LIFE " at this point everyone was in the room. Matt was nocked out cold. Everyone had to force me to get off Matt, they were trying to rip me off him. I turn to Shawn an just cry, and cry hard sobs then I started having a panic attack. I look at my dad, " medicine, I NEED M- " then I blacked out.