TEXTS | BTS

NOT AN UPDATE

hello again, I'm aware I keep doing these and I'm sorry about that. I am updating everyday so I hope you don't mind as much.

the last one I did was a Hoseok appreciation post however this one is just me explaining how I'm feeling. I'm trying to update as much as I can but I'm really feeling like I'm incapable of doing anything anymore.

nothing's making me happy, I just went through my whole photo stream which is just bts and no reaction I'm so numb. writing usually makes me feel better and that's why I have a half written part to finish for tomorrow.

put halfway through writing I would just give up and delete everything thinking what I'm writing is shit.

I don't want to go back to college because I'm scared I just don't know anything anymore. I'm worried all my friends talk about me behind my back, the boy I have a crush on I have no chance with. It's like me thinking I could get with Jungkook, um no.

I don't know, I'm really just feeling down. I'm so tired yet I can't sleep I just keep crying. I'm hungry yet I feel overweight so I'm not eating. Christmas is round the corner yet I just want to lock myself in a room and die.

I hate talking about this because of what happened with Jonghyun but I think that's really made me worse as I've wanted to do the same for so long. I kinda just feel like dog shit.

I am dog shit. correction.

life just feels like a lot of work all of a sudden.

I hope BTS never feel like this, god I feel like shit.

sorry about this, just wanted to let you know how I'm feeling in case anything happens to me or I do anything to myself. then you would know why I haven't updated if I haven't.

don't worry about me.

to be honest I feel like shit and I have no friends to talk about it with. so I'm talking to you guys. which you all probably don't care.

I'll go now, goodbye.

~ 24/12/17