TEXTS | BTS

(41) Part I

BTS as your boyfriend.

series: them finding your old self harm scars for the first time.
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*slightly triggering*

he was just sitting there, staring at the blank tv screen, you wondered what was wrong with him but you figured he was just tired.

"can you do my bath water for me?"

you battered your eyelids as you looked at him sitting on the couch.

"with rose petals?"

you nodded as he sighed standing up, towering over you. he plants a kiss on your forehead holding onto your cheeks; his lips linger on your forehead for a while.

"I'm smelly jagi, let me shower."

moving your body around, you tried to move out of his hold but his grip on you was too strong. his hands were now on your shoulders holding you at arms length.

"can I see your wrist baby?"

you giggled a little holding out your arms rolling your sleeves up.

"If your wondering where the bracelet you got me is, I'm not wearing it bec-"

"where are they?"

you paused frowning.

"what?"

"I saw it."

you were getting nervous now, yet you still giggled moving closer to him trying to hug him. he pushed up away from him softly, staring straight into your eyes.

"wh-what are you talking about?"

"the blade y/n!"

he shouted running his hand through his hair before dropping to the floor in tears.

"Namjoon, I'-"

"you removed it from a sharpener, I just-"

his voice broke as he tried to explain his thoughts, you knew you messed up. you hated yourself for making him like this, you really didn't want him to feel like this because of anything.

"it was a long time ago."

he turned to you.

"you still did it, why baby? why? I love you so much you know? you never need to do this, ever again please."

he grabbed your hands placing kisses on them repeatedly before he stops. his eyes wet with tears, he looks up at you.

"let me see them, please."

"I don't really wan-"

"please."

you let go of his hands reaching for your jeans, you have done something's together not had sex but he's seen you more or less naked. removing your jeans not completely, you revealed your scars on your upper thighs.

Namjoon sighed deeply as he see them, they're not fresh but they still hit him as you can see in his expression.

"why haven't I ever noticed? I'm such a shit boyfriend for fuck s-"

"don't ever think that, ever. It's not your fault it's mine, i cover them with make up most of the time. I just never wanted you to see them; I'm sorry."

no more words were exchanged as Namjoon moved into your hold cuddling with you.

"I love you so much y/n."

"I love you too, I'm sorry I'd never do it again."

"please don't."

there was a short silence before Namjoon spoke up again.

"do you still want me to do that bath for you? because your fucking smelly."

"babe!"

~ 25/3/18

I hope you like this, ew it's so emotional.

I've been very tired lately sorry about the slow update, I'm always so tired nowadays it's annoying.

should I do a book for each member? I'm thinking of starting a Hoseok one I already did a Taehyung book and a Jungkook book.

however, Taehyung's one is a short story.

Hoseok is so hot omg the picture I'm going to put is so sexy I'm so confused who the fuck my bias is. He looks like breakfast lunch dinner and dessert, men in all black oh my it's a blessing

I'll post a Namjoon photo on hoseok's part.

I love you guyss